alright, listen
i get its a few days after his death (XXXTentacion)
but i had to thibk some things thru for a lil bit
firstly, i wanna say that im not considered a long time fan of X
I just got interested in his music when the ? album came out
but even in such a short time he has had such a big impact on me
i listened to all his music (i even downloaded soundcloud to listen to this mans music)
and hes a damn legend
a lot of people hear the bad about him
like the bad like,, he got accused of beating his pregnant girlfriend, he used to be extremely violent an get into fights, and other shit like that
and first of all, the person who accused him (aka Geneva) confessed that she wasnt pregnant AND she wasnt beat, and no one ever seems to look at that when they point that FIRST THING OUT
like if ur gonna spill the tea then spill all of it nimrods.
second of all, he did used to be violent, but he said in his first vlog (you can find it somewhere on youtube) that "he used to try to be the villian and he wasnt happy with himself" and he tried fixing himself from that. and he succeeded, he slowly became a better person.
he also experienced one of his close friends killing herself right in front of him in a hotel room (i think thats accurate, i found all the receipts but i cant ever be too sure) and that put him into a major depression, which took him a long while to get over (the friend was Joclyn Flores btw,, i think thats how u spell it im tired as hell). And he was in the process of getting over it with his last album and his unfinished or unreleased songs. and he just had to die.
even if you thibk he's a shitbag, even a shitbag doesnt deserve to die so young. he was fucking 20. just 3 years after being a teen, he couldn't even drink yet.
this man really made me want to start thinking positively while he was alive, and i was absolutely shattered when he was pronounced dead. and it still fucking hurts. i found as much videos as i could from him with his face or his voice and i watched them on repeat for 4 days, trying to convince myself he's still alive. but i know hes not. but his music is definitely staying legendary.
his music is currently livibg on (thanks to ski mask posting his unfinished masterpieces on yt) and he definitely won't be forgotten anytime soon or anytime in the future.
RIP to the first legend ive heard in a while, might be dead but not in our hearts.
