i could not sleep last night
at all
like most people have a reason for not sleeping
like parents arguing, stress,or, uh, idk, just depressing thoughts in general
i could not sleep for all of last week and i noticed that my power goes out for 20 minutes every night around 1:45 am
thats how fuckin woke i was during me trying to sleep
like for most nights i can get at least an hour of sleep, but last week there was no sleep at all except for some naps during the day
its almost like how during the school year, Im a very stressful person thats too lazy to do my work, so i'd stay up at night trying to finish all of my work quietly
and then when i would try to fall asleep, i never would until i pass out hours later
i draw whenever i cant sleep at night
80% of my drawings in my art book was drawn at night and colored in the morning
and sometimes in my sketchbook, i'll jot down some noises i hear and try to make sense out of then so i wont be scared to sleep
i can somewhat understand why i stressed out last week, that was my first week working at the library and the week i came out to 2 people i used to be close friends with as trans
but why did i stress out last night?
