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Im scared

I'm scared of myself I know I'm going to die one but I don't what it feels like of course.....I wanna know what to be looking for I wanna know what to expect so when that day comes... I'll be ready cause I'm scared of feeling like I might die every two seconds scared thinking that I won't go anywhere when I die I won't go to heaven and I won't go to hell...I'm scared as you can tell but I'm trying to stay strong I'm trying....to stay alive. So when I hear "OMG someone just killed another person" that shit gets me heated I wanna go on a killing rampage myself but I don't.... because every life matters so why? Why end someone's life when you don't know that they can change the world when you don't know...that they may save everyone from death but no...you say they slept with my wife they hurt my family.....I'm going to end them for I'm going make them suffer what you clearly don't understand is that you will suffer more than them they'll go to heaven if they haven't signed and you will be in jail for the rest of your life (if you don't confess) and then when you die game over for real this time you're going to hell. So I've told you that I'm scared but the one thing that I'm scared of is that...I might die alone I know people are like you're just 11 you have time....to be honest I don't have time when I get out of high school I'm going to college and becoming a author so i won't have time to really look for a girlfriend/boyfriend. But don't worry i'll be fine and moving forward.....but...i'm still scared