MAC: FACTS AND UPDATES

Amelia, Cancer, Covid 19, Suicide, A-levels, Future?

Okay. So this is the broadest title I think there has ever been on wattpad.

As im sure you all know, 2 weeks ago Netty gave birth to a gorgeous daughter Amelia Rose. Martyn seems smitten too.
I really hope they're always happy together. Such a lovely little family.

Unfortunately that's the only set of good news.
The world has gone to shit. Plain as I can say it.
2020 so far is the worst year of my life and I fear its only going to get worse.
My mum got diagnosed with cancer a month ago, it's an incredibly rare case with only 2 known cases internationally, neither of those cases were successful.
I really really really don't want my mum to die.
She is supposed to start chemotherapy at the end of this month. Chemo will kill off all the white blood cells, these cells fight off infections. My mum will have absolutely no immune system basically.
And guess what?? Corona virus time!!
I'm going to be honest I thought everyone was overreacting. I still think everyone (including myself) is, and it's all down to the exaggeration on the media.

Saying that. There are cases about 5 miles from my house.
I go to school everyday with hundreds of people.
This virus will kill my mum if the cancer doesn't.
And if she survives, then she is actually immortal.

I'm not mentally well. My school seems to have picked up on that.
I have such bad headaches now and there's far too much on my mind.
I want to write a film. I want to film this film. I want to edit this film. I want to pass my A-levels. I want to look after my mum. I want to look after my dad. I want to pass my grade 8 piano. I want to go to university. I don't want to get the corona virus. I want to actually live.
How on earth can I do this?
This is actually far too much for me.
I cannot physically cope with this anymore.
We're probably going to be quarantined next week.
God what the hell is going on!?
I'm not the only one who feels like this!
What is wrong with this world!?
I feel like a ghost. I have to be dreaming.
I want to wake up now.