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Chapter Twenty-One: I Get Advice From A Ten Year Old

Mom was gone in the morning and I was alone in my room, so I decided to read more of her diary. That was the most physical contact we had made in years and I wanted to know why. And the answers were all in her diary.

Dear Diary,

Today was...incredibly shocking. Someone had confessed their love to me. It wasn't Alec. It was Dustin Lenore. Someone I don't like at all. He is a lot like me, yes and he is also the third most powerful Radiant (after Melissa) but he acts like a . . . well a dickhead.

My eyebrows lifted in surprise. Apparently my mom swore when she was younger.

Somehow everyone heard about it and it's weird how many people support us being together. Alec also heard about it and now I don't know what's going on between us. We have been able to see each other everyday at three o' clock in the morning, by the sycamore tree next to his house. So when Alec confronted me, just an hour earlier by our usual meeting spot, he asked me if I loved Dustin.

Of course I told him no. Dustin was always a sort of friend. We talked before but I never knew he liked me that much. It's borderline creepy. I know I'm beautiful and I seem nice but I'm also a huge mess. Only few people in the world can deal with that. One of them is Alec. I should've taken that chance to tell him that I loved him but I didn't. I was a coward. I was afraid of rejection.

Alec could've said something too, but he didn't. We were just silent for a long time. He was also livid. He was angry that knowing I was still in a way involved with him, Dustin still dared to tell me he loved me. But Alec couldn't really do anything either. We weren't supposed to be together.

Dad is Dustin's number one supporter. He told me that Dustin was second in power only to Melissa. If he could add that to our family line, we would grow so powerful. As much as I want that for my future children, I want love more. Especially now that I know how it feels. If Alec and I have never took an interest in each other, I would have been okay with being with Dustin- for the power. I know, it says a lot about me.

Here, having a boyfriend most of the time means you're going to end up marrying him. Of course, that's only most cases. Others switch between people, it's perfectly normal. But at the mention of love, a wedding date is already planned, even if it's years away. Omnipotents work way differently than normal people.

It might be better if I get some sleep. It's four-thirty in the morning. I will write more tomorrow.

Yours truly,

Gemma Dawn

I stared at the entry in frustration. Why couldn't mom just tell dad that she loved him for God's sake! I swear their story should've been made into a book. I would read it over and over again. And Dustin Lenore . . . Lenore was Parker's last name. Which means that Dustin was Parker's creepy dad.

I heard a knock on the door and quickly shoved the diary away before getting up and tying my crazy bed head into a ponytail. "I'm coming!" I hurried over to the door to find Bree standing on the other side.

"Oh, wow Kaya . . . um your hair is just-"

I rolled my eyes. "I know it's sticking up all over the place. Honestly, you should be used to that after all the sleepovers."

She grinned. "I know, I just had to make a comment." She sobered up quickly. "You are going to come out, right?"

I didn't respond but instead started to make my bed.

Bree walked in, exasperated. "Kaya, please tell me you weren't planning on staying holed up in here until this whole thing blows over?"

"You're asking me to lie to you?"