Dont you have that one friend...
That says that you can talk to them and they would understand.
But.
In all honesty...
They dont...?
Dont you hate it...
When someone currently ignores your feelings, then tells you their own..
And you try to help them...?
Dont you love it...
How...
"Friends"..
Can be so blind...?
I dont get it...
HOW.
HOW do you not SEE the pain...?
Are friends that blind?!
When I talk to you...
Do you actually think I'm happy..?
When I first came here...
Did you guys really think I was happy...?
Couldn't you guys see it...?
The pain of how I felt..?
...I guess no one could..
Did you really think...
I was "thinking"...?
When in reality...
I was doing something completely different?
When I say I'm ok...
Couldn't you see the hidden words in that..?
Ok...
BrOken...
Now you see...?
No?
Didnt expect it...
But that doesnt matter.
I know at least some of you... 'care'..
But..
I dont feel it..
Sorry for my selfishness.
Sorry for my feelings.
Sorry for being worthless.
And I'm sorry...
That you all were my friend...
Or that you met me...
Go ahead.
Say what you're going to say.
It wont help..
I feel so numb...
People always make me feel...
Like...
I'm nothing.
To be honest...
Some of you guys on here do to..
I could tell you who..
...But then I'd have to explain everything.
Shes TRASH.
Shes so WORTHLESS.
Shes a MESS!
Shes FAT.
Shes is UGLY.
Shes a WHORE.
Shes a MISTAKE.
Shes a DISGRACE.
Dont worry!
That girl..
Is me.. :3
I'm fine..
Always will be...
Remember that..
Not like my feelings matter anyways..
My body hurts...
My skin hurts...
My brain hurts...
My heart hurts...
Everything...
Is just going numb...
One of my older friends asked me one time,
"Everytime I come around you anymore, you're so emotionless! Why?"
I dont know...
Why?
Now you notice...?
Now you see...?
But of course..
I told them I was just being my new self and there was nothing wrong with it.
They bought it, of course..
...Like you guys did..
But hey!
I dont blame ya!
I mean,
Not like anyone REALLY cares how I feel.
Not even my own sister...
...
Sorry..
I wasted your time here...
Like I waste oxygen just breathing here...
Sooner or later...
My life will crumble more.
And when it goes to the point..
Were I'm on the verge of the cliff..
I'll...
Jump!
No one would jump after me.
No one would miss me.
I'd just..
ROT.
I starved myself today...
Like I do every other day...
Cause I think I'm fat..
My stomach is currently rumbling..
But that doesnt matter.
I stayed home today cause I felt sick last night..
I stayed in my room all day..
Cutting..
Carving..
"Words" and "Pictures"..
HA.
Ha.
Haha...
Someone bought that..
If you want proof..
I can give you proof.
But..
I know some peeps that go to the same school as me..
So..
I dont want them to tell the school.
Heck.
School is currently a problem as well.
Oh well...
...
Just ignore this...
Just..
Let me die..?
Please...
Let me be alone...
Like I'm used to..
You all think I'm alright anyways..
Oh well...
...
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.....
......
.......
Dont expect me to believe your lies or give in.
