Divergent: no war

Chapter 40

Chapter 40:

Two and a half months later...

TRIS POV:

I have no clue how long I have been in this state. All I know is that it has been past a month. I heard the awful fight between the doctor and Tobias. I can hear everything I just can't respond to them. That fight was the worst so far, Tobias sounded so broken.

FLASHBACK

"It's been past a month why isn't she awake!" Tobias yells, most likely towards the door. Currently he is holding my hand.

"I don't know according to my charts she should have waken up by now." The doctor says calmly to Tobias. This only gets him angrier. He drops my hand and I can hear him standing.

"Well obviously your chart was wrong!" He screams. I hear a few foot steeps and I'm guessing the doctor left.

Tobias lays his head on my stomach and I can feel the tears that soak my clothes.

END OF FLASHBACK

That was one of the worst days. He comes in every day, the first few days he didn't leave. I wonder what is going on with Andrew. How much he has grown since I have been in this coma. I wonder where Tobias takes him as he comes to see me. Once in a while he will bring him in here, not that often though, probably not wanting our son to see me like this.

Tobias talks to me about how Uriah is now head Dauntless and Eric and Max are in questioning back at Erudite. Uriah is currently trying to find new Dauntless leaders to take Max and Eric's places. Tobias said that he is going to most likely put it up to a vote to the whole Dauntless population.

Today is one of the rare days Tobias brings in Andrew. I can here Andrew because the way he always gurgles or whimpers. He never cries when he comes in here. I still have not heard him cry once his who life. I wonder if he cries at home.

My body is slowly getting better, as the days pass I can feel more of me come more alive, just not strong enough to move. I want to cry as I feel I small hand wrap around just one of my fingers. I want to see my child. I want to see my soon to be husband. I want to see them. I can feel as a tear slowly rolls down my cheek.

OMG... Am I crying? Am I actually crying? I feel Andrew let go of my finger and Tobias scoots closer to the bed. I feel his hand wipe the tear from my cheek but it is soon replaced with others.

"Tris if you can hear me please try to do something. Anything even a small twitch." His voice is soaked in sorrow but also hopefulness that I have finally waken up.

I try with all my might to move my hand even an inch. I can't feel it but I know I have done it when Andrew who was grabbing my finger again let's out a small shriek.

"Andrew? What are you doing?" Tobias asks him gently. I feel Andrews grip get stronger on my finger.

I twitch it again this time I'm pretty sure Tobias is watching it. I can hear him gasp and he leans back into my face. He brushes back my hair.

"Tris please try to open your eyes, I need you." He says so hopefully that if I didn't do it I would feel really guilty.

I attempt to do it but fail. I try again. But nothing happens. After a few tries I want to give up. It feels like my eyelids are boulders I am unable to lift.

I can feel as the single drop of a tear lands on the skin of my neck. I know it's Tobias's. I had given him false hope.

With that thought I try to open my eyes, the hardest I have tried. The guilt from giving false hope weighing on me heavier than the boulders. That's when I find myself staring back into the beautiful deep ocean blue orbs I have grown to love.