RBF with US II (Random Book Filled with Update and Stuff)

Important Update + A Thank You Note ♡

I've been moody lately.
So moody that I feel like I'm depressed or like a little suicidal.

I've been having dreams about me doing all kinds of suicidal acts.

I think I have a problem in me ead, but I don't know what.

Anyway, school start next week for me (16th July 2018), so all of my projects like stories will be 75% will always be late.

I will mostly try to update on the weekends, hopefully if I can.

Don't be sad because I will rarely on, I won't leave all of you alone ♡

You guys and girls are wonderful person. You all deserve a better future than I am ^^

I am a person with low standards. I am a very high introvert, I have a low self esteem, I rarely get up and walk through my comfort zone, I am quite anti social, i have ADHD, and pretty much dumb and stupid as fucc.

Like very.
Like wtf am I still here anyway? Like I should've died on that fall, back when I was a little boy. I should've cut deeper when I still like cutting myself with a razor when I was like 5 or 6.

Like I should've run from my house while I still had that chance, and died somewhere.

Like, every part of my brain is like giving up. Like I can't get great scores, I am dumb and clumsy, I am nothing but a piece of crap, and all those bad tthings that perfectly fits for me.

But that doesn't mean I'm taking you all down with me. Everyday, I pray to god that you all will live happily.

I prayed that one day you all can make changes to the world.

I prayed that one day, you all can make the world with a wonderful and better future for all mankind.

I prayed that... I hope you all will live, happily ever after. For a lifetime at this world, and for eternity, in the afterlife.

Like I always said:
"Everyone deserves a little happiness in their lives"

And that happiness is for all of you ♡

I will try and give all of my love and care for my family, parents, teachers, and friends and every people I've known.

Including all of you ^^

Even if you're differente from the rest, like you're gay, or lesbian, or different race, colour, and more, I still love and respects all of you ♡

I don't actually support the LGBT community, but that doesn't mean I don't respect the people that are in the community.

If I don't support the community, at least I must respects the people ^^

I am a person that is like being respectful, caring, and kind to everyone. Even with your differences, I still respect all of you. Because we are all human beings, and every human beings have heart and feelings.

I, thank you, for everyone who are still sticking around with me, to this very day, I appreciate all the love and cherish all you gave me everyday (A lyric from Josh Groban music called "To Where You Are" ♡)

I thanked to all friends ♡
From the very beginning, til now, I thanked all of you ♡

Thank you for accepting me for what I am ♡
Thank you for being such kind and sweet individual ♡

And thank you, for all the memories you all have given me ♡

I love you all, thank you so much for... everything ♡

Ak-Chan
You're not ugly, you're unique ^-^
You are a great person and I think you deserve much more friends and happiness than I am ♡