I don't want to
And it's not like I have to
So why do I have these-
These sudden urges
And why do I need these-
These sudden urges
Because I've tried every possible way
Every alternative every route
Every turn every possibility
Every option and every foot
Of these ways which I cannot come to terms with
I only have one dependent to keep with
Sometimes I'm so alone
That I just cant help it
Other times I'm so alone
I can help it
I'm in control
But that control is sometimes abused
And that's not the only thing
That's casually used
It's hard to hide it
To mask it
To cover it
And yet you ask for it to be shown
Like you want people to have known
I know it's not right
I'm aware it's wrong
I cant help but do it
It makes me feel calm
Occasionally I'm numb
When I get these urges
Other times I'm present
And that's when it strikes me
That this isn't the way to handle this
Out there, obstacles were put for people to face
We come to terms with these hurdles for a reason
It's freedom we chase
It's not an act of treason
Just know
That you might feel alone
In the dark
Like you're nonexistent
As if all your close ones have left you
But that cigarette can't ignite like the feeling of love
Those scissors become dull when faced with compassion
Needles and knives can't pierce the bonds you have with life itself
You will always have someone
Or something to keep you going
But of that something costs you
Realize then:
it's life that keeps you moving
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Poems For When...
PoetryHere are some short poems I was inspired to write. They're based on the weather, things that make me happy sad, etc., things that have happened to me or that I believe happen to everyone, and probably some more topics. I've organized the chapters to...
