A Good Girl Gone Biker Bad | SOA // Jax Teller Fanfiction

Sixteen • Logan Hudson

I don't understand why he is acting like this. Logan has never acted like this because he stopped caring when his life went downhill. I pull back from him with a slight frown. "Logan?" I cock my head to the side slightly as I try and figure out what is going on. "Yes?" Okay so now how do I go about this.."Why are you acting like this?" His face goes from smiling to that familiar cold expression. "Because you're the only one that can make me be the old me. You were never around so I went down the wrong road."

I look at him with a frown before shaking my head in disagreement. "Don't you dare put this on me! I fucked my own life, not anyone else's. You know, you are literally like mom? Always blaming me for everything that you fucked up in your own life!" Silence fills the air, nothing is said just blank stares between one another.

"I always thought you would follow in Dad's footsteps and be the better man..but I guess not" I shake my head before looking away. "I'll take a test but you need to go now" When I say this, I don't make any eye contact with him at all. The last thing I do hear though is the door shutting behind me and Logan to be nowhere in sight.

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I always knew being in Charming was a dangerous idea. I should have stayed away from Charming when I originally first left, I place my hands over my stomach as I look down to my hands. I know that I could pregnant and that the father is Jax but this has to stay silent for as long as it can. Otherwise, all hell is going to break loose if everyone knows. I have no idea though to how Gemma knows but then again, it's Gemma we're talking about here.

It's been a few weeks yet as much as I want to go back there, this is for the good at least for now. I was about to go on with my day but as I open the door to leave I'm suddenly greeted with a pair of familiar blue eyes. I sigh and slightly rolling my eyes but he doesn't budge a bit when I go to leave the room so instead, I turn on my heel before I take off my bag from my shoulder, placing it on the bed.

"How long were you going to go before telling me that you had left Charming?" I look away from him as he shuts the door behind him. "I don't know, probably wasn't going to tell anyone. I was going to come back at some point but just not yet. I can't not after everything that has recently happened with Opie"

We just stare at each other for a few minutes, with not one of us saying a word. "Charlie I know how hard this must be for you but you can't shut everyone out that cares about you -" Jax was about to continue when I cut him off. "So you're saying that you actually care about me now after all this time? Because last time I check you didn't care how I felt when I was telling you that getting with Tara was bad news" I frown slightly before I see anger appear on his face.

"Don't bring Tara into this! I've always cared about you and how you feel but that is a different story" I roll my eyes, whilst I scoff; "Oh Jax please, you don't care about me or how I feel otherwise you would have listened to me there and then. We were so much closer before you pushed me away and stepped into her trap"

Everything goes quiet before Jax runs his hands through his hair. "You didn't realise that did you? That's the reason why I'm the person I am today because if I let my wall down and let people in that I care about, that makes me think they care too. I get pushed away, now I don't let anyone in unless I can tell they really mean it." I wish things didn't go like this but they did. Should I tell him about the pregnancy? Now isn't the right time, I'll tell him when the time is right.

"I'm sorry Jax but I think it may be you that shutting out the people you care about not me" Nothing is said, he just stares at me before walking closer to me and cupping my face in his hands. "I never meant to push you away Charlie and you know that. But you've got to tell me the truth about something" I frown slightly and I just stand where I am, slightly losing myself in his eyes.