His Sunshine, Gabrielle

I'm river's girl

Gabrielle Marie Dasher

"Trick-O-Treat!"

The laughs, the smiles,the positive energy,and the happiness is stronger than ever tonight in Ocean Ridge especially from the children.

Halloween.

The day where kids dress up to go out to eat candy that you regret eating once you visit the dentist the next month or so.A non holiday that I celebrated like crazy as a child.

I grabbed my red duffel bag from Carter's bedroom floor and take it into the bathroom with me to prepare myself for tonight.The bubble of excitement in me forming instantly.

"I can't believe you made me do that, we are so not doing that again next year." Carter whined from the outside of the bathroom sounding exhausted.All I could do was smile. Carter, Tucker and Timmy have never passed out candy on Halloween until today. I made them buy candy and this year they gave out candy like normal citizens do.I had a great amount of fun doing it.The boys thought it was horrible because sometimes the children demanded more candy which I found adorable in the way the boys couldn't deny them that.

That wasn't what had me smiling though.It was the fact he said next year.That meant he expected me to be around for a while.The days were passing,and I can't even deny how rapidly my feelings for Carter were growing.We have ups and downs, but it still doesn't change the way I want him.I can't begin to understand or label the feelings forming inside me at the sight of simply hearing him talk,seeing him smile,or having him close to me. I just know that he makes me feel the one thing I thought I wouldn't feel again...happiness.

"Get ready Carter." I softly commanded to him while pulling out my mask and dress.I'm Bat Woman for the night.Tucker was the one who bought costumes this year,I was bewildered when I saw my costume or half an outfit as Zachary would call it.

It was a short leather dress with the yellow bat logo on the chest.I shifted in discomfort from how tightly the dress clung to my breast and my bottom.The dress practically revealed everything.The length was ridiculously short,coming only up to my mid thigh.

What would Zach say about this dress? I didn't even have to think more than ten seconds before his voice popped in to my head.

"Brielle Marie, what do you think you are wearing? I will kill you before I let you leave my house like that."

What would Christopher say? I quickly push the thought of my father out my head.This night wouldn't be taunted with his memory.The night was for laughter,and fun...not heartbreak with a mixture of disappointment.

I begin to do my hair before I crash deeper into my thoughts.I stare myself down in the mirror,hoping to hide all of the features that bother me.I was never so insecure about myself,but once the assault happened my self esteem went down the drain.I can put on this super tight sexy dress,wear bold red lipstick,curl my hair to perfection,and manage to look beautiful,but I will always feel the same way.I will always feel like people who look at me are staring at the things he did to me.I feel as if they can give me one look,and instantly know that I am that fourteen year old girl who was touched sexually.

I place my mask on my face.Smiling sadly at myself once more.I didn't feel so bad about tonight's look as I thought I would.Time to face the night.

I open the bathroom door to quickly meet my batman sitting on his bed while throwing a small ball in to the air.Carter stands up quickly when he hears the padding of my feet as I set my bag down by his chair.My cheeks turned crimson when I see him just staring at me with one soild emotion is his eyes--lust.I never knew the true meaning of lust until I met Carter.I finally understood how it felt to want someone in every way possible just by their simple kisses.I blush just thinking of how excited I get when Carter sets me on top of him while we kiss.