Fifty shades forever

Chapter 44.

CHRISTIANS POV

Ana's asleep next to me, she's exhausted, my mind flutters back to the horrific night mare I had last week. Like every other it opened my eyes. But we're in an amazing place right now. Life is simply amazing. The look on her face when she saw that Audi. If you would have told me three months into the relationship that she would ever accept a car of any sort with open arms I would have laughed in your face and referred you to Flynn. But now it's nothing but a distant memory.

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I wake breathlessly on the bed, I can barely grasp my surroundings.

"I love you, I'll always love you. But I'm just not in love with you anymore and I am sorry, truly sorry." Anastasia says, the tears she's trying to hold back threatening to let loose. I choke on the only words I can think of. Them being "I'm sorry" , no tears are threatening to let loose from my behalf. I just stand in utter bewilderment. My whole world disintegrates around me and I make no effort to stop it. Because I've become a better man, a man who should let her leave.
But then Teddy runs from the other room and leaps in to my arms. I nearly drop him because my eyes are too fixated on Ana. I'd never drop him, if I did I'd have to abolish myself from this world. My vision moves from one that's blurred to one that's clear. What fool would I be if I let them leave. A bigger one than I already am, a more selfish one than I already am too.
He plants a kiss on the side of my cheek and whispers "I'm going now daddy" but I don't let him go, I hold him through his wriggling because he can't be taken from me. None of them will be.
I'm not such a good man after all. My subconscious shakes his head. And my Ana makes no attempt to move.

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I need to get the children. However, Ana will want to come and I'm also tired. I wrap my self around her and drift off peacefully.

I wake to Ana creeping out the room. What time is it? Shit. Oh. It's only 12:30pm.

She shuts the door and I jump up, throwing the nearest jeans and top to me on. This will do.

ANAS POV

"Oh hello" I say as Christian walks into the kitchen. He looks gorgeous and sleepy.

"Hello to you too"

"I can't believe I fell asleep"

"I know but you had little sleep last night, we were up early" he says. It's true. But I should be used to little sleep with the children.

"I've spoken to your mum, they're out at the moment. They'll be back in an hour" I tell him.

"Oh so we've got an hour to mess around with" he says pulling me closer to him.

"I know. What do you recommend of us doing?" I ask. What he's thinking is exactly what I'm thinking.

"Well I have a few ideas, one of which dominates the others. No pun intended" He says making me laugh. I think I will enjoy this.

"I agree" I say as he lifts me allowing me to wrap my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He kisses me, and I deepen it immediately. He's stunning.

"Bedroom or here?"

"Bedroom" I mutter.

He carries me up the stairs, missing a step each time. He tosses me down on the bed making me laugh. He looks over at me and doesn't say anything.

"Now you've got me here..." I say winking and his face breaks into a shit eating grin.

"I'll be back" he says and off he goes once again, I expect him to go somewhere else but he goes in to his wardrobe and quickly emerges with a tie in his hand. Hmm.

"Give me your hands" I extend them to him and he knots them together with quick pace. He uses his hand to gesture me to lay back, in which I obey.

He lightly touches my inner thigh, working his way up to my breast. And he commences his assault.

"Please Christian" I murmur with need and his stills looking at me. As though hes making a decision in his head. Quickly he removes the tie from my wrist and flips my over so that I am lay on my front. Taking the tie once more he ties my hands around my back. I clench my jaw and stifle my moans as he enters me.

In a brief moment he pulls me up so I a sat upright on him. He plants kisses up and down my neck and shoulders, intensifying my need for him.

"Oh my" I scream as he quickens the pace. As I reach my climax he groans and meet me.

"Christian" is all I say as he lets my hands free, pulls out of me and turns on the bed so we're in a more comfortable position and I am lay on him.

"That was..." He says and words fail us both.

"I know, I love you"

"I love you too baby"

"Come on we need to get ready" I say placing a kiss on his lips. He kisses me back briefly and ten sits up.

We are on the way to Christians parents and he looks odd. Not physically but mentally. I can't decide if it's good or bad.

"What are you thinking about?" I ask pulling him out of his daze.

"Nothing particular, I was thinking about how I imagined our relationship would go and your faith that you've had in me, it's odd." Oh god no.

"Christian we have been through this a million times and each time you say you're reassured. Why do you keep on going back to it?" This breaks my heart.

"I know and I do have reassurance , my point is that each time I have a wake up call whether it's near death, a nightmare, a dream , a memory. I am met with you and your faith in me therefore I am grateful"

"So what is odd?" I ask in bewilderment. He will never not be confusing to me.

"That I believe you" He says looking at me smiling. Finally, I thought we were past this anyway. He told me before Teddy was born he knew I loved him so why is he recalculating the matter.

"Well I am glad you do because it's true"

"I know, that's what I have just said" He replies, smart arse.

"Near death?!" I say realising what he has just said.

"Oh you know, fires, helicopters, crashes, stalkers, narrow roads in foreign countries, jet skis, the list is endless really" He says laughing.

"I'll never get rid of you will I?" I say laughing.

"Not a chance Mrs.Grey" He says smiling.

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