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You know, when you've known somebody for such a long time, they are your best friend and you'd think that they would stick with you no matter what? Well it turns out that's not the case.
Last year, I was with my best friend for every single class, we hung out every day and it was great. We were so close. Closer than siblings.
This year, everything has changed. We only have ONE class together and I won't lie...I get jealous easily...
One class together and she has all of her classes with a girl that I hate because she constantly tries to take my best friend from me and she's won. And than hurts like hell.
But it's not like I can say anything to my teachers 'Oh can me and my best friend be in the same class cus it's not the same without her'
That's stupid.
But everything has changed.
I'm in classes with people I don't even get on with and I don't even get to spend lunch time with my 'best friend' anymore because that bitch of a girl keeps taking her away.
You guys have NO IDEA how close we were, Leah and I, and now this bitch has finally got her way I have to put up with seeing the two of them hold hands etc from the other side of the corridor.
I was the one that was there for Leah when she was diagnosed with diabetes, I was the one that cried because I was worried sick, I was the one that changed my own diet so she didn't feel left out, who messaged her everyday regardless whether I got a reply, who stuck up for her and looked after her and this is the outcome? Like it was all for nothing? I barely get to see her and it fucking hurts. There are actually tears pouring down my face right now because I can't do anything about the harsh reality and I have to put up with it.
I am depressed without Leah.
Actually depressed like everything and everyone is against me...
Atleast that's how it feels.
The bitch comes up to me daily and says bullshit like 'Oh yeah, me and Leah are in the same, top classes for EVERYTHING. We are together for EVERY class'
So I nod and I put on my fake smile because I hate causing trouble but Leah is MY best friend. Not that bitch's. She wasn't there for Leah when I was.
AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
It'll sound ridiculous if I tell people this.
But I miss her so much, there is no body to share my interests with, to laugh with me, to make me happy.
I am depressed.
I have insomnia.
I don't find anything fun or happy anymore just because some BITCH can't bare to see Leah with me.
It hurts.
So fucking much.
No body has any idea.
I don't have anything to keep me haply anymore apart from the fact that I can RP and I have family.
School has turned into a living nightmare or bullies and idiots and I have to cope with that every single fucking day and my best friend isn't even there to help me.
Fuck this shit. And I'm such a wuss because I can't open up to anyone, I'm too shy...
I can't tell Leah this because she's actually friends with that bitch so I have to just watch then walk off together whilst I stand there by MYSELF. And in the only class I have with Leah is Math.
Today she had to go to the medical room, she didn't even look at me as she left, she turned to the bitch who then nodded and turned to me smugly and said 'Don't bother coming with us to the medical room'
And they left.
I'm crying so hard like a fucking weak baby, admitting my insecurities...Fuck fuck fuck.
I never want to set foot in that school again.
