"HOPE?!"
".........."
"HOPE?!"
".........."
"HOPE?!"
".........."
"Why aren't you calling her name" Naruto asked, frowning.
"I don't give a fuck about where she is, that's why" I said angrily, remembering the way she had clung on to him like a leech.
Naruto sighed deeply and continued to shout out her name as I crossed my arms and remained silent. I don't know where the hell she could have gone. Kazami said that she was going to sleep in my house, but if I can't find her she'll just have to sleep outside in the cold!
I angrily chewed on my bottom lip and tried to force down my anger; is she Kazami's new apprentice? Is so she didn't mention anything about it.
Before I could find an answer to that question, my stomach growled loudly and I blushed in embarrassment as Naruto glanced at me and grinned.
Damn, I just realized I haven't eaten anything at all today...
"Are you hungry" Naruto asked curiously.
"No" I replied sarcastically "my stomach just fucking growls for fun!"
Naruto glared at me playfully before sighing deeply and ceasing to walk. I came to a stop and stood beside him as he looked around for a minute.
"Ok" Naruto said pointing at a building close by "we'll look for Hope later. Let me take you out to dinner."
I blushed slightly and glanced at the restaurant he was pointing at only to see what looked like expensive and elegant looking material and people.
"T-That place looks expensive" I muttered, walking off "we could just go to the ramen shack."
Naruto rolled his eyes and grabbed my arm as I stopped in my tracks; turning towards him.
"It's fine" he replied "I'll order you whatever you want; even if it's the most expensive thing on the menu."
I stared at him for a long time as he looked at me pleadingly.
"Do you even have enough money for a place like that" I asked, trying to use any excuse possible.
"I've been saving up" he replied simply, dragging me towards the restaurant.
Knowing there was no way to talk him out of this, I allowed him to drag me to the restaurant.
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"See anything you like?"
I ignored him and continued to scan the menu for the cheapest item they had; it wasn't helping in any way. The cheapest item on the menu came up to 150 ryo.
150 RYO!!
Can you even begin to imagine that?!
I frowned uncomfortably as a waiter came over and took out a small notebook.
"Are we ready to order?"
Naruto glanced at me and I exhaled deeply before turning towards the waiter.
"I'll have the....that" I said pointing at the cheapest thing.
"The Jumbo Shrimp with lemon sauce?"
"Yeah...that."
The waiter scribbled it down on his little notebook then turned towards Naruto who I had just realized was glaring at me.
"For you, sir?"
"Give me and her the most expensive thing on the menu."
My eyes widened and I wasn't the only one because even the waiter looked surprised.
"S-Sir, you do realize your total will come up to 8,ooo ryo?"
"I know" Naruto said, grabbing our menu's and handing them to him.
The waiter simply nodded and left as I turned my attention towards Naruto; anger slowly filling me up.
"Are you stupid?!" I said furiously "that's a lot of money!!"
"I said buy whatever you want" Naruto said "you didn't listen to me so I just got something I thought would be good."
"Liar" I snapped "you got the most expensive thing on the damn menu!"
"It's okay" he reassured "I'll pay for everything, let me just treat you to this one thing."
I remained silent for a long time then sighed in frustration and leaned back in my chair. Naruto smirked victoriously and crossed his arms as we had an intense staring contest.
30 minutes later, our food arrived to the table and I stared at it in awe. In front of Naruto and I sat what looked like the ocean itself.
There was a king sized crab with garlic and lemon dipping sauce, accompanied by a 15 piece platter of jumbo sized shrimp, and a lobster salad.
"Enjoy" the waiter said, walking off towards another table.
Naruto smiled happily and started tearing into his food like a wolf, but I couldn't stop staring at mine. There was really no point in Naruto buying two of these; we could have easily shared one and still had lots left over.
I grinned slightly and started eating my crab as Naruto glanced at me. We sat in silence for about 15 minutes or so, just enjoying our meal and I finished the crab so I move on to my shrimp.
"Hey Ruka" he said, setting his fork down "can I ask you a question?"
"Sure" I said, eating my food in a pleasant and happy mode.
"Earlier when you were bleeding and I treated you" Naruto began as I finished my shrimp "w-why did you have scars all over your wrist?"
My fork clattered to my plate, louder than necessary, and I suddenly lost my appetite. I sure as hell wasn't expecting him to ask a question like that! I quickly averted my gaze and played with my fingers under the table.
"It's nothing..."
"Liar."
I glanced back up at him surprised as a small frown tainted his lips.
"I'm not lyi-"
"Yes you are" he said angrily, cutting me off "I already told you once that I hate when you lie to me! So why do you keep doing it?!"
"Because maybe I want to!" I replied, anger consuming me "you don't need to know everything about me! Besides, like I told you the first time; it's nothing!
"YOU'RE SUCH A LIAR!" Naruto yelled as a few heads turned in our direction "just tell me what's wrong!"
"WHY DO YOU ACT LIKE YOU GIVE A DAMN ALL OF A SUDDEN?!"
Half the people in the restaurant turned towards us and started whispering curiously as the waiters all glanced at each other and took a step back.
"I DON'T NEED YOU TO ACT LIKE YOU CARE BECAUSE I KNOW YOU DON'T!" I continued yelling "WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE KONOHA AND GET OUT OF MY BUISNESS! UGH! I HATE YOU NARUTO UZAMAKI!!!"
I angrily stormed out of the restaurant and I felt my eyes glazing over with tears that would never spill.
Why does he always have to pry in my personal business like that?!
Why can't he just learn to leave it be?!
My legs moved subconsciously on their own and before I knew it I was at one of my favorite places.
The swings.
I exhaled deeply and ran my hand slowly across the cool, dark wood as it made a small chipping sound under my fingers. These swings...I love them but at the same time I can't stand them. All the good and bad memories they have is just...overwhelming.
The day Naruto and I officially met.
The day Naruto left me to go train
The day Naruto came back after 3 years.
All those memories were held right here at these very swings; so the only word I can use to describe them is overwhelming.
"Ruka."
I angrily gritted my teeth and kept my gaze firmly planted to the ground. Just as I expected, I had a feeling he would follow me here. Naruto slowly walked over to me and gave me a stern look.
"Tell me."
"I told you it's noth-"
Before I could finsh my sentence, Naruto pinned me to a tree and glared at me angrily as I stared at him surprised.
"Ruka" he said, breathing heavily "I'm starting to lose my patience with you! Now tell me!"
"I HAVE SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!"
Naruto's eyes widened in shock and he stared at me for a long time as I exhaled deeply and curled my hands into fist.
"WASN'T EXPECTING THAT, HUH?!!" I yelled as my voice shook and I felt like crying "I CUT MYSELF BECAUSE IT FEELS GOOD! I ENJOY WATCHING BLOOD POUR OUT OF ME BECAUSE I HATE MYSELF! YOU WANTED TO KNOW AND NOW YOU DO!"
Naruto frowned sadly and continued to keep me pinned to the tree as I took deep breaths to make my depression go away.
"My life is like a endless pit of darkness" I explained "I have a high level of depression and it's been thay way since I was 5 years old; Tsunade told me. You may have thought I've forgotten but I always think about my old grandparents and how they use to beat me and treat me like filth! I feel like a shattered mirror that someone just left behind to slowly turn into nothing more but dust. That's why...you should just forgot everything I've told you; it's not like there's anything you can do to stop it."
Naruto slowly let go of me and I slid away from the tree, nervously clearing my throat and waiting to see his reaction. Before I could react, Naruto took a Kunai out of his pouch and slid it across his wrist as his scarlet blood dripped to the grass.
"What are you doing?!" I asked, snatching the Kunai from him.
"Getting scars on my wrist like you" he said, smiling slightly as I began bandaging his wounds "we've been friends since we were 12 years old Ruka. I just wish I could have known you sooner so you didn't have to suffer through all that pain and criticism by yourself. I care about you more than I care about myself and it's strange at times. I want to stay by your side as long as I can because I...."
I finished bandaging Naruto's wound and looked up at him; waiting for him to continue his sentence.
"Because you...what?"
"Because I love you."
I gasped slightly and opened my mouth to speak, but I couldn't respond seeing as Naruto lips were pressed against my own.
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Me: Hey guys! That's the end of chapter. 45! I hope you enjoyed it!
Naruto: It was a sad and romantic chapter today
Ruka: Yeah, I liked it, it was something different and unexpected.
Me: Also your secret is out so you don't have to hide it from him anymore!
Ruka: About time...
Me: *Squints eyes suspiciously* What's that suppose to mean?
Naruto: *Backs away* Let's not fight~
Ruka: Story_of_Fate13 doesn't own Naruto
Me: *Still suspicious* Later guys...so what did you mean?
