Finding Forgiveness {Jerza}

The Right From the Wrong

Jellal's P.O.V

I love Erza, and I know she loves me. However, I can't help but feel wrong for giving into my temptation after years of not giving in. Every time my mind doubts my actions, I kiss her and my mind goes blank. I don't want to stop, and I know if I continue to allow myself to think, I know I'm going to.

All I can think about is Erza,

All I want is Erza.

For the first time in years, I feel happy. Genuinely happy. I felt like a light inside of me turned on and was growing brighter with every touch of her. I don't feel the constant burden of guilt. I'm not saying my guilt is a hard burden, because I deserve far worse. But I am saying that I feel relieved of even the smallest weight in my life. I feel as light as a feather whenever I'm in her presence.

Her.

Our lips met once again as I moved my hands down to her waist and put a bit more pressure behind my kisses. I'm emotionally hungry for everything Erza has to offer. I'd wondered what it would feel like, if I ever allowed myself to kiss her. I knew it would be everything I ever wanted, but I never thought that it would feel this good. It felt right. It felt like our lips were made to fit together.

This is our first night together, though.

She deserves to be treated like the queen she is.

I shouldn't go much further than where we're at right now.

I placed kisses from her lips to her lower abdomen.

I watched as she writhed and giggled when my kisses tickled her. She's too adorable for words.

When I met her face to face again, I felt her hand feeling my tensed abs. I looked down briefly to watch her hand, then I looked back at her grinning. She giggled and pushed me over onto the bed. She then was sitting on me just as she was before, and strands of scarlet hair brushed the sides of my face as she peered over me.

"Erza Scarlet,"

"Yes, Jellal Fernandes?" She smiled.

"You... Are truly the most beautiful girl in this universe," I said as I stroked a strand of her hair behind her ear, "I'm the luckiest man in the world." I smiled earnestly.

She blushed yet again, and you could tell it wasn't because of the previous activities we'd been doing. I watched as tears formed in her eyes.

"Aw, what is it, love?" I asked as I pulled her into me, so that she was now laying on me, "Don't cry, you're too pretty to cry."

"No one's ever called me beautiful and meant it before," she whispered into my chest.

"Well it's my fault. I should've told you sooner. Erza, do me a favor?"

She nodded as she wiped away her tears with the back of her hand.

"Stay in my arms tonight... Don't leave my side, okay?" I said, leaning down to place a kiss on her nose.

"Okay," She said weakly with a smile. She gave me a feather-light kiss on my chest, causing me to smile as well.

"Can you make me a promise?" She asked as she relaxed into my body.

"Anything in the world for you,"

"...Promise me it won't just be tonight." She said with a hint of worry, lifting her head to look me in the eyes.

I gave a small laugh at her doubts. Did she really think I'd ever give up, even a second, of being with her? I smiled before responding,

"I promise it won't just be tonight..." I assured, not completing my sentence.

She yawned and cuddled into my chest. I pet her hair lovingly once again as she slowly fell asleep.

"...Mrs. Fernandes," I whispered into her hair before I kissed the top of her head.

I'm not sure if she heard me, but for once, I hope she did.

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