Howdy humans, It's been awhile since I've really done a true rant chapter like I used to in the good ol days. So I'd like to announce that I'm going to try to be back on here, updating things, rant books, fanfics, and books with my friends. I miss this shit, so ya boi Rin is back.
Tonight is just going to consist of a classic rant chapter, a lot is happening right now in my personal life and I'm in much need of a long rant. So.. let's get down to fucking business. ~
Within the past nine months since my parents finally split up my father has aquired a girlfriend who he's already extremely serious with. He wants to forget the past and just move on and have a happy future with someone to love, but for me, it isn't that simple. The past is all I've ever known for my whole life and it's not something I'm ever going to forgive, or forget.
Some would call it dumb to hold on to all this rage, but it's quite convenient sometimes, why would I want to heal? Fuck that and you. I'd rather live my life unwilling to trust people, filled with murderous rage, emotionless and alone than pretend to be fine and happy. Happiness is for the fucking weak. I've learned from all this bullshit and know how to deal with curtain situations now. Know this, plain and simple, you fuck with me and my life, I'll fuck with yours motherfucker. I'll slit your god damn throat if it comes to it.
Sorry, got off track for a second there.
My father is already planning marriage to this woman, along with moving in with her and her two kids. I personally want no part in this mistake of his, I want nothing to do with his girlfriend or her kids, I don't even understand them since they barely speak English. But of course I have absolutely no say in his life discussions, though this one is genuinely dumb as shit. He's been approved for a loan of $200,000, already seen tons of houses, and tonight asked for a ring from me because he was thinking of proposing to his girlfriend tonight. I don't believe he did, because he didn't mention it... Thank fuck.
They'll probably try to get me in the fucking wedding as a "bridesmaid" or some shit. Hell no, I think not. I'll be wearing a men's suit, no tie, and heavy eyeliner.
I don't know man, I just find it extremely irresponsible to get so serious in a relationship when you've only been together for 7 months. Wait awhile, make sure you really do care for and trust each other. Don't let love, or lust, cloud your decision making skills.
I've already been though so much in 9 months, this is just adding to my stress and mental turmoil. I'm terrible with change, and this shit is all going way too fast. I feel like my head is going to fucking explode, I'm stress smoking and drinking again just to cope with all this shit.
Next thing I know I'll probably be living in the damn basement of some random shitty house, with people I hate. Wow, so fuckin fun. I seriously don't plan on staying long though. As so as I have steady income and a car I'm fucking out of there, never looking back. ~
Thanks for coming to my rant. So long and good night.
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