Over the past hour or so I've been reading the rest of this book, I barley remember half the shit I said in here. Yet, I'm still glad there's documents from when I was stuck in that cycle of abuse, at least to prove it lol.
Turning 20 next week.. I'm fucking terrified. Still sometimes wish one of my old sh attempts worked, but I'm still here I guess.
Adult life is long and stressful.
Work is awful. I barley make enough money, was promised a promotion to management over 3 months ago and literally nothing has come of that. Don't think anything will either. At this point I don't even care, it's just KFC. I have bigger and better things to worry about and plan for in life.
I have a real girlfriend. Idk how the fuck that happened other than her seeing me at work and thinking I was hot. Her words not mine. Genuinely don't deserve her, but I'm grateful that she's in my life now.
I have irl friends.
I can say that I'm a regular weed smoker as well. There's an old post in here about wanting to smoke weed, thought I'd mention it. You made it kid gg 😅.
Almost 3 months on Testosterone, name is still Nathan, just gotta change it legally when I have time. Got the paperwork though.
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Glad I'm not that ugly ass kid anymore lmao.
So... here's to my 20's. Here's to hoping they're better than my teens and childhood.
