- TROYE -
It was like a magnetic pull, my lips to his.
I couldn't control it. It's nothing like I've ever experienced before, not even with Caleb.
My breathing got heavier as I could feel his warm breath hitting my lips. It was like I was falling, my eyes closing as I feel my head twirling with anticipation.
Almost there.
My entire body is slowly igniting, and all I want is to close the gap between our lips.
Almost there...
*RING, RING, RING*
We both freeze, our eyes shooting open, our lips just about to touch.
My eyes shift to look into his colored orbs, and I can't help but release the breath I was holding as I observe the various shades inside his eyes.
"Th-that's Caleb" I whisper, recognizing his ringtone.
"Yeah" he whispers back, his warm hand still caressing my cheek.
"I...I should get that" I whisper again, scared that loudness will shatter this little world we were in.
"You should get that" he whispers, warm air being exchanged between us.
I take a deep breath, reluctant to leave this moment.
I move out from under his hand, grabbing my phone and picking up the call.
"Yes?" I snap, still angry at him for screaming at me not so long ago.
"I'm sorry" he says.
I roll my eyes at this overdone routine of ours. Him screaming at me, me breaking down, him apologizing.
"Whatever. What do you want?" I ask, rolling my neck around to get rid of the tension.
"I went to the hospital"
I don't have an STD (thankfully), but my nurse told me to make Caleb get checked too.
"And...?" I ask. I'm still mad at him, but I still care about him. I want him to be okay.
"Can we talk somewhere?" he asks, hopefully.
"Yeah" I say, hanging up the phone.
I get out of bed, changing into a new pair of sweats.
"Um, Ty? I'm going to go meet with Caleb" I say, shyly.
"Oh...okay. I'll...um...I'll just leave. Be careful, okay?" he says, gathering up his things.
"No, can you stay?" I say, quickly.
I don't want things to be awkward between us just because of one stupid almost-kiss. I need him. I always screw everything up. I have a boyfriend, and I was going to kiss him. I felt guilty and Tyler hated me.
"I don't know, Troye..."
"Please, just stay. I need you here with me. I'm sorry, Tilly, I really am. I don't want things to change between us, and I rea--" I ramble.
"Troye, it's fine. Don't worry about it" he says, shooting me a weak smile.
I gather him into a hug, clenching my eyes shut when Tyler stiffens. He eventually loosens up and hesitantly wraps his arms around me again.
"Will you be okay?" he asks, his voice muffled by my shirt.
"I'll be fine. I'll be back in an hour, okay?" I say, kissing the top of his head.
He nods his head, hugging me one more time, breathing in deeply.
I smile at him before leaving the apartment and heading to the park to meet Caleb.
My heart flutters at the thought of meeting Caleb when he is calmer.
I sit down on bench, burying my hands in my pockets.
"Um, Troye?" Caleb says, sitting down next to me.
"Cal!! What happened at the hospital?" I ask, flinging my arms around his neck.
"I'm fine" he replies.
"That is such a relief!! I was so scared tha--"
"Troye...we have to talk..." he says.
- TYLER -
I groan, falling onto the couch, covering my face with my hands. This was a mess. I've never wanted him more than I do right now. The fact that I was so close, doesn't help either. I was so close to kissing him, and I didn't get to do it. It's like waking up from the best dream of your life to find that you're living your nightmare.
I hated this.
- TROYE -
I get a nervous pit in my stomach as he says those words.
"Okay....let's talk...." I say, nervously.
"So...I was at the hospital, right?" he says, taking a deep breath.
"Right...."
"Erhm, well...I kind of...I bumped into Austin..." he says.
My heart stops in my throat. No. He is not doing this to me.
"Caleb...."
"He wants to get back together" he says, quickly.
Tears spring to my eyes.
"I...I..." I stutter, not knowing what to say.
"I'm sorry, Troye" he says.
My eyes widen. He's actually going to do this.
"No...no, you're kidding" I say, laughing dryly, despite the tears on my face.
"I'm so sorry. He's the love of my life. I can't say no to him..." he tells me.
"N-no, Caleb, I can change. We can change this" I say, desperately.
"I'm sorry, Troye" Caleb says.
He kisses my forehead, before getting up and leaving.
I stare at the empty spot next to me in shock.
What did I do wrong? Why is all of this happening to me? Why do I feel like everything I touch crumbles into a thousand pieces? Why do I keep letting myself hurt like this?
I walk home, in a daze. The day has passed, and the darkness of the night matches my mood. I take the long way home, sniffling as I watch my feet hit the pavement.
All I want is to see Tyler. He always knows what to do to cheer me up. I should have kissed him. I should have kissed him when I had the chance.
I turn on a random road, walking into a cheap-looking bar.
I need alcohol.
- TYLER -
I'm trying to wait up for Troye, it's getting late and I have no clue where he is. While he was gone, I cleaned the place up a bit. I don't feel that sick anymore, I think I got rid of the food poisoning.
