Bruno Mars | Natalie, the untold story (Complete)

Closure

Chapter 27

Closure

When we woke up we both didn’t really talk. I was still in a bit of a shock of what happened last night. I let Sarah’s words repeat itself numerous times in my head. It was like my mind put them on repeat. I couldn’t let go. The fact she just put me on the spot in front of all those people really hurt me. She put all my personal stuff out there for everyone to hear. I knew she was mad and I knew when she was mad she was being serious. But I never in a million years thought she would do something like this. I never did anything like that to her.
But what’s really bugging me was the fact that she never told me I actually hurt her by staying with Bruno after he had beaten me more than once. She never said it straight to my face. Of course I knew she was worried about me and I knew that she cared for me, but that it actually was hurting her was new to me. Now that I think about it, I understand. I mean I would feel the same if something like that happened to her. Even now that we are fighting. I wonder what Alex drove to say the things he said. And why he wanted to piss Bruno off ‘till the point he snapped. I was really angry with him for using Noah to do so. It was weak and disrespectful. Although I am totally not approving Bruno’s outburst, I can understand. You just can’t bring something so hurtful up like that. He must have known that Bruno still couldn’t deal with this loss, I’m sure Sarah told him. I always thought of Alex being this chill dude, that never made a fight or fuzz about anything. And now this happened. He totally went bananas on Bruno’s ass. That was so uncalled for. I just hope he was really drunk and didn’t really know what he was doing.

After we had breakfast, or maybe I should say coffee, cause we both didn’t really eat that much, I went to take a shower. Bruno was just sitting on his couch staring into nothing. He didn’t speak, he just sad there. I decided to leave it like that, if he wanted to talk he would say so. I think he needed some alone time. Noah being brought up last night was hard for him.
When I got back he was still sitting on the exact same spot. But I saw his shoulders jolting. He held something in his hands, I couldn’t see what it was. I walked over to him and then I saw it. He held the ultrasound picture of Noah, the only thing we had from him, in his hands. He just looked at it while tears were pouring down from his eyes. I took a seat next to him and carefully took the frame from him and put it on the coffee table. He turned his head to me and the look on his face broke my heart into a thousand pieces. The sight of him instantly made my eyes wet and teary too. I grabbed his hands and held them. I swallowed a few times and heaved a big sigh before I could actually speak.
“Baby, please talk about it. You have to talk about this. It’s eating you up from the inside…”, my raspy voice whispered to him. He didn’t reply to my words. Well he did, but not with words. He just crashed onto my lap and threw his hands in front of his face. I don’t know for how long we sat there, but it was quite a while. His heartbreaking cries, slowly made place for quiet sobs.
My legs were even hurt for sitting like this all the time. I needed to switch position. Carefully I asked for him to sit up. I stood up and walked to the kitchen to get him some water. He grabbed the glass and took a few sips. I was planning on leaving after my shower, I still had last night’s outfit on. I didn’t had any clothes at his place anymore and I wanted to change into something comfortable. But now this happened and I couldn’t leave him like this. He might do something to himself in this state. While he was smoking a cigarette I figured out what to do. Then suddenly a light bulb appeared, I called Phil and asked him to come over to watch Bruno.
I told Bruno I called Phil and when he would arrive I would go to the motel to change. He just nod his head and then went off to take a shower. Phil arrived sooner than I thought. I didn’t mind, now I had some time to explain everything to him while Bruno was taking his shower. Maybe he would talk to Phil, I really hoped he would.
“I have to go now. I need to change my clothes and clear my head a little. I hope you understand baby. Phil will stay as long as you want. If you need me just call me and I will come right away.”
“It’s okay baby, I understand. You go do what you gotta do. Phil and I will be fine. Thank you for being here for me and thank you for taking care of me. After all that has happened between us.. I’m so glad you are back in my life again. I love you so, so, so much my sweet, sweet Natalie”, he whispered while hugging me. We kissed goodbye and then I left.
Tears were stinging in my eyes while I left his place. I hated that I had to go, just when he needed me. I think I cried the whole way up to my motel.
This whole time I really wanted to call Sarah, ask her to come over and talk. It was always the first thing I would do when I felt like shit. But now I had to deal on my own. I could call Hailey but she didn’t know everything, she would never understand. My mind was making over time right now with all these emotions and feelings going through me. How could everything go from being perfect to being so dreadful?
My thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringing; it was Bruno. He asked me how I was doing and told me Phil and he talked a lot. I was so glad to hear that. He already sounded so much better then when I left him. He said Phil was leaving and asked me if I wanted to come over. He had an idea and wanted to know how I felt about that. He told me to wear something formal, a nice dress or something. I didn’t know what he had planned but I did as I was asked and headed over to his place.