VLD Oneshots part 2!!

Shiro x Depressed - Deadweight part 2

Warning! Character death and mentions of suicide. 

If you're thinking of committing your own death please rethink of what you're doing. I've survived from a failed attempt and I know from experience that this is not the way you want to go out. The first thing I felt was regret because instead of relief, I was not happy with what I got when I saw Death face to face. This is not the way no matter what you think. If you need someone to talk to you can DM me but if you don't want to that's fine just please reconsider what you're doing because I know that everyone who reads this is precious and does not deserve an early death because of some people being losers and not knowing how precious you actually are.

"Shiro you-" "That was stupid. Of all the things that you could have done to yourself, what you did would probably the stupidest thing any human as done in the history of Earth," Shiro growled. You looked to the side as Shiro angrily paced in front of you.

"Shiro," You croaked, choking on your tears.

"(Y/n), you could have died, what were you thinking?!" Shiro shouted.

"I wasn't thinking!" You screamed. "Get out Shiro! The only reason why I left was because of you! It's because of ALL OF YOU!" Shiro's furious expression tightened with regret as he dolefully walked out. You wept as he started to walk causing Shiro to walk even slower on his way out.

Everything came out all at once as you cried, wept and screamed in agony. The halls echoed as you cried and Shiro heard it all.

...

You sat against the wall, clutching the wound in your side. You were back in your room with your cut even bigger than it was, possibly with infection and now Shiro knew that you were weak and everyone in the castle heard you crying. You shouted and punched the wall behind you, waiting to see if any blood came out. You needed it. You needed the satisfaction of pain to wake you up. You needed to bleed again. You wanted to die. You carefully rolled onto your knees and stood up with only one thing in mind, death.

...

Shiro lay on his bed thinking of the screams that were repeating inside his mind. He had never heard you cry before until now and hearing you scream in agony while you were doing it tore him apart. He was the cause of this, they all were and they had no idea until she made it clear. He sighed, almost crying himself for making such a big mistake.

"She called herself deadweight," He whispered. "She's not dead weight, why does she see herself like that?"

"SHIRO!" Lance shouted. Lance ran into Shiro's room with a pant before shouting. "(y/n) isn't in her room, there's blood."

Shiro bolted up and ran out with Lance right behind him. "Where was the blood?" Shiro asked.

"In her bedroom. There's no trail, I don't know where she is," Lance answered.

"Oh my gosh this is my fault," Shiro growled. Shiro arrived in your room and saw the blood that Lance was talking about. "No there is a trail," Shiro said. He bent down and saw a faint trace of blood that was wiped off the floor. He followed the trail out, never looking away from the hidden trail of blood. "The kitchen dining hall, I know what she's doing," Shiro said.

"Oh no," Lance whispered. Shiro and Lance ran faster until they burst through the doors and saw a body hanging from the ceiling. Lance looked away while Shiro just stared.

"I'm sorry (y/n). I didn't know" Shiro whispered. "This is my fault." Lance looked at Shiro and you before firmly putting his hand on his shoulder.

"Shiro, that's not how you should talk to yourself," Lance said firmly. Shiro looked at Lance in surprise as Lance jerked down his shirt to show a scar around his neck. "If you think like that you're going to end up like (y/n). I'm lucky to survive and I learned my lesson. Don't go down that same path."

Shiro's eyes welled up in tears as he looked back at you. "I can't keep going after this," Shiro admitted.

"Yes you can, Shiro look at me," Lance turned Shiro around to face him and looked him dead in the eye. "Do NOT blame yourself for this. We played a part in this, that's true but there's nothing we can do right now. So keep going. Learn from this so that this doesn't happen again," Lance said.