lowkey | KJ Apa x Camila Mendes

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[ Cami's P.O.V ]

[3:45 AM ]

I switch my bathroom light on and stare at myself in the mirror. The bags under my eyes are large and extremely dark.  I prepare myself a warm bath and turn back around to close the bathroom door. Right before I fully close it I hear Ian call from the bedroom.

"Camila." He says.

I open the door again and poke my head back into the room. "Yes?"

"It's today isn't it?" He asks, refering to the beginning of filming for season 2.

I give him a quick nod. Dreading what I know he is going to say next.

"Look, Camila, I really don't feel comfortable with you going back there to him. I don't think you should do this anymor-" I stop him before he continues. I'm beginning to become so sick of him bringing this up.

"Ian, seriously, I'm not talking about this right now. Just drop it." With that I close the door behind me and strip down to enjoy my bath.

[ Fifteen Minutes Later ]

I brush through my black curls one more time before shoving my brush back into my makeup bag and placing it into my suitcase. Zipping up the last of my bags, I head out into the living room of mine and Ian's shared apartment and get ready to leave. My flight to Vancouver leaves in just under 2 hours, but I had planned on arriving earlier so I could meet up with Lili.

"Ian, I'm leaving." I call out to him as I head towards the door. He emerges out from the bedroom, while still putting his shirt on.

"I've got to go." I watch him as he rolls is eyes at my comment.

"Please don't." A large sigh escapes my mouth while he continues, "He's obviously into you Camila, I don't want you to be near him. I don't need him trying to take you away from me."

"He's not into me, He's not going to try to take me away from you. Ian, KJ Isn't that type of person. He just cares about me and what I want because that's wo he is. We're just friends" I reply. As much as I wanted us to be more; I know being with Ian is what needs to happen.

"You think you know him, Camila? You think you know what goes on inside a guys mind. He'll try to do anything he can to make you his! How the hell do you not understand this?"

"What the hell are you on about Ian. I've already told you this before; KJ and I are just friends."

"For god's sake, Friends don't look at each other and touch each other the way you two do. 'Just Friends' don't kiss each other so passionately everyday." He shouts at me.

"It's my god damn job Ian. It's acting. I thought you understood that. I thought you accepted the fact that I would have to do this occasionally." This time I am shouting at him. "Don't you!?"

"I do understand that you're an actress and this is what you do. You act. But everyone can see it Camila, what you guys have, it's not acting."

I'll admit that KJ and I have grown so close over this past year and I'm not complaining. I mean the chemistry between Archie and Veronica was so instant because of the connection between us.
I like him so god damn much, but we can't date. We can't ruin what we have. Our friendship. He means so much to me that I would never let some stupid little feelings alter with our relationship.

Besides, I'm technically still with Ian. I shouldn't even be thinking of KJ.

His smile and laugh always make my day. Everyday I get up I feel excited because I know I get to see him when I get to set. I know I get to kiss him everyday, even if it's just as Veronica.

I've wasted three years of my life trying to love Ian, but in reality, no one can make me as genuinely happy as this adorable little red head boy from the complete opposite side of the world.

"Don't you trust me?" I ask walking closer to him.

For a second he just stares at me. His head makes a little shake before he replies, "I did. But I can't let you go back to him and not constantly worry that I'm gonna lose my girl. You know I've never liked him and yet you still hang out with him. I'm not gonna lie Camila; but I feel like you spend way more time talking and hanging out with him than you do with me. Your actual boyfriend."

"How are we supposed to do this if you can't trust me?"

"I don't know. But it's up to you. You choose." He says.

"What?"

"You need to make a decision. Me or KJ. Who do you really love?"

Tears build up in my eyes and are at the brink of falling down my cheeks.

"I actually can't believe you're making me do this Ian. You can't expect me to choose between two of the people who mean so much to me."

"It shouldn't be a hard decision." His voice becomes stern as he replies.

"Well it is!"

"No it's really not." He looks down at my suitcases and back at me. "You know what, I think I already have my answer."

I let the tears fall down my cheek and hit the top of my lip.

"We're done Camila. Have fun. Oh and make sure to tell KJ that he finally won. He can stop trying. "

After those final words left his mouth he retreated back into the bedroom before slamming the door.

I let out the biggest sigh and just broke down. The most part of me was just so tired that everything hurt so much more. But then there was a part of me that was relived that I didn't have this weight on me before we began filming.

I pick myself up and grab my bags and head for the door. I was never so eager to meet up with Lili. I needed to vent.