I haven't seen Fionn for six months. I know that he's in London, but he didn't call me, so neither did I. These months were hard, even though how hard it seemed in some moments, it was better for me. Better for me in way to have time and think about everything.
Fionn and I could never work out. We were amazing bestfriends, always there for eachother, full of understanding. But us in relationship would never happen, when obviously I was the only one who had feelings which were bigger than feelings you have for a best friend.
I finished with lectures at university and headed to the near coffee shop. It's the same coffee shop where I saw Fionn six months ago. As soon as I stepped inside, I regreted my wish for coffee.
There was Fionn, sitting all by himself at the table where we usually sit. I casualy walked pass him and order coffee, trying not to pull too much attention to me. Quickly, I got my coffee and headed towards the exit when I heard Fionn's voice.
"You just walked pass me without saying hi?" Fionn said and I cursed in my mind.
"Hi Fionn" I said as I turned to him.
"Do you have time to join me?" Fionn said with smile.
"I don't want to interrupt your time." I said but Fionn insisted on joining him so I gave in.
I sat down and awkward silence filled the air. Like I was sitting with the person I had never shared all my stories.
"So, how are you?" Fionn asked breaking awful silence.
"'Never been better. You?" I said.
"Great." He said and silence came again. I started to look around, unsure what else should I do.
"She is not here." Fionn said emotionless.
"Excuse me? Who is not here?" I asked confused.
"Amelie is not here." Fionn said taking a sip of his coffee.
"Oh" was all I said again unsure what the hell am I supposed to say or possibly do.
"We broke up." Fionn continued and I looked at him confused.
"I am sorry." I said even though I am not 100% sure if I am truly sorry for that.
"I know you are not sorry." Fionn chuckled.
"I don't know what else is normal to say in this situation." I said biting my lip.
"I know that what I am about to say is not normal in this situtation but I am madly in love with you." Fionn said in one breath.
"I -I okay." I said feeling completely numb.
"Okay?" Fionn asked rasing his eyebrow.
"If you told me this six months ago, we would probably be together by now, but now I am not sure what I feel for you." I said as I got up ready to leave.
"You are just gonna leave and throw your feelings away?" Fionn said raising his voice a little.
"It won't be first time for me to do it." I said leaving Fionn behind.
Six months I was trying to push away those feeling and now when I finally felt happy and satisfied, he decided to come between me and my happiness. Walking away should never be an option, but if by walking away you'll be happy, it's worth trying.
Should there be part 3 or to leave it this way?
