Merlin imagines

Merlin- Option

A/n Since I am back at school and my workload has increased by half a ton I am not sure how regular my updates will be from now on. 

Something is wrong with Merlin. Maybe I have a sixth sense or maybe I just know my fiancee a little too well but what I do know is that he is hiding something. 

No longer can I hide my discomfort, no longer can I ignore the fact that I know Merlin's hiding something. The second he walked in the door this evening I will confront him about it, I never expected his lips to be attached to someone else's as he walked through the door. 

"You prat headed, two faced, dung filled, idiot!" 

The girl attached to Merlin's lips had left ten minutes earlier but my string of insults had not yet ended. 

"How could you do such a thing you absolute clot pole!"

My string of insults had ended but my anger had not. Instinctively my fingers reached for the closest thing to me throwing it at him, unfortunately for me it was a pillow. 

"Ow!" He flinched as the pillow hit him, the girl hidden in him coming out as he screamed as I threw a jug at him. "That had a drink in!" 

"Your lips," I cried, picking up a plate chucking it at him before watching it shatter to the ground. "Touched her's!" 

I stopped throwing his as my anger subsided and the true reality of what happened hitting me hard in the face. 

"You were kissing her." 

At that moment I felt like my heart was cracking. I fell backwards, landing in a chair, tears streaming down my face. My entire being was breaking along with my heart as my mind kept replying how Merlin's hands were tugging at the women's clothes and her hands were skimming across Merlin's chest. 

I opened my eyes to see Merlin kneeling in front of me going to place his hands on my knees but I moved away, his touch for the first time ever repulsing me. 

I walked away from my fiancee, going to lean against the wall as wave after wave of nausea hit me. 

"Y/n are we going to talk about this?"

I ignored him for a few new moments, not being able to bear the thought of talking to him, before I turned around readying myself to address the situation. 

"How long?"

"Sorry?" Merlin sounded confused, greatly confused, but I would never know as I could not look at his face without even feeling heartbreak again. 

"How long have you been cheating on me?" To say those words, to admit that he was doing things with other people, hurt too much and it made me want to curl in a small ball and sob. 

"A couple of weeks."

"Do you love her?" My voice cracked, the thought of him loving someone else causing both anger and sadness to rise up in my chest. Merlin did not answer, I dared to look up but I did it anyway and as I scanned across his face all I saw was him in deep thought. 

"I don't know." 

"Do you love me?" I questioned. Merlin looked up from the floor his eyes meeting mine, softening as they did so. 

"Of course I do." Normally that would give me some consolation, normally I would met at the sound of his voice, but this time all I could think about was what had happened only moments ago. 

"The why cheat on me?" My anger was appearing again, firing up in my chest as I daringly met his eyes. "We were going to be married in less than a month!" Merlin's eyes widened at the word, 'were', but I did not care and I carried on regardless. "You were about to spend the rest of your life with me and yet you you."

I stopped, lack of breath and words causing me to do so, and so I just let my chest rise and fall. 

"Why?" With tears burning in my eyes I looked at him, ignoring the escaped tears on my cheeks, I looked at him really and I no longer saw my fiancee. I saw a man with one too many mistakes. 

"I did not want to choose." 

"If you still feel like you have to choose," I started walking over to the door. "Then don't choose me."

Merlin went to stop me, but I had slammed the door behind me, my last words handing in air looming over Merlin's head. 

"I was your fiancee, I am now your ex but I am not nor will I ever be an option."