It was a cold sunday morning here in Dublin and I was standing beside the window of my pad looking in the street with full of busy people walking around the city, busy doing their thing without even bothering to look around them.
This is what I love about liberated countries. They don't usually mind your own business. You can do what ever you wanted to in the streets. You can kissed anywhere with your partner in the street without malicious looks from the people surround you. Instead they will admire you by doing it. Around way better than a conservative countries like the Philippines where I came from.
I can't be myself there because I was too afraid for the reaction of people around me once they'll know the truth about my true gender. Let's be true here, it is not easy to be a bisexual if you live there.
People will say that you're not in the right track of your life. That you should be like this than that. That you can't enter the kingdom of God above. And it was like ----- the hell I care!!
As far as I believe that God only want's His child to be happy. You know? Who the hell are they to stop us to reach our own happiness? Though meron namang mga organization na nag-s-support sa mga kagaya ko na ika nga ay wala daw sa tuwid na daan ay 'di parin nun maiibsan ang takot na magladlad ng mga kagaya ko sa harap ng marami. Knowing that they all believe that you belongs to a man. Not to a woman..
Alright. Enough of that. Anyway, its been 5months since I moved here in Ireland from Paris. I am working as a mushroom model. Well for those who don't know what mushroom model is, it was a kind of model who only attend in a photoshoot once in a blue moon. No doubt na marami akong kasong kinaharap noon sa mga former agencies na humawak sa akin.
I was too broke back then. And modeling is one of my way to temporarily forget some unpleasant memories from the past. Sabi nga nila, keep yourself busy to skip your problems every day. And I did. Pero bakit ganon? Kahit anong gawin ko ay 'di ko parin makalimutan kahit konti ang mga nangyari noon? Fuck lang!! Nakaka-inbeyerna kaya!
My original plan about having my revenge is still on the road. Nanahimik lang ako ng mahigit tatlong taon malayo sa pamilya ko sa pinas. Sa loob ng mahigit tatlong taon ay maraming nangyari sa akin. Nag-masteral ako sa Harvard University noong nakalipas na mga taon at ngayon ay mula sa aking sariling sikap ay nakapag-tayo na ako ng sarili kong modeling agency na meron ng limang branches.
Maya-maya pa ay narinig ko ang pagbukas at pagsara ng pinto ng aking pad. Hindi na ako nag-abala pang lingunin upang tingnan kung sino ang pumasok at naghintay na magsalita ito.
"Umaayon na ang lahat sa plano." Salita ng isang babae sa aking likuran. "Konti nalang at makakamit mo na ang gusto mong paghihiganti."
"Hindi ba sila naka halata?" I asked her before I sip my coffee.
"Nah, I guarantee you na masusorpresa sila sa pagharap mo sa kanila." Napangiti ako sa sinabi niyang yun.
"You never fail me huh, Joyce." I said bago ako humarap sa kanya.
Hindi na ako nabigla ng pagkaharap ko ay agad niya akong sinunggaban ng maiinit na halik sa aking labi. Hindi ko naman ito binigo dahil sinasagot ko din naman ng maaalab na halik si Joyce. Bigla itong napasinghap ng ipinasok ko ang aking mga kamay sa loob ng mini-skirt nito at pinisil-pisil ang kanyang pang upo.
"Oh-fuck. You really know how to burn me up." Mabigat na paghingang sabi nito sa akin. I looked into her beautiful blue eyes where I can clearly see lust.
She want me to praised her beautiful soft body. That's what her eyes says to me. I don't need to think twice for an answer. I push her on top of my bed and right there I saw her winning smile.
While she's looking at me I started taking off my dress. Excitement flows into my system when I was totally naked in front of Joyce. After I satisfied her eyes with my naked body I jump and place myself on top of her and starting to give her a wet hot kisses.
Joyce Ayen Cruz is my lover for almost 2 years now. And everytime I'm beside her I can always totally say that I am satisfied for what I have now as long as she's with me.
For the past years I learned how to be a badass bitch from a sweet one. Hindi ako pwedeng humarap sa kanila ng palampa-lampa. If I need to turn to be a demon then I will. Ganoon ako ka pursigedong maghigante sa kanya. I will show her how she made me into this. How she turn me into a demon.
