Hold Me Tight BTS;Suga

× Chapter 1 ×

   The mix of sweat and alcohol was too strong for me as I moved through the crowd.
  Bodies pressed up against me as I gasped for air, I was having a panic attack and no one was noticing.
  I felt like someone had punched me in the stomache.
  I lurched over sliding my hands on the wall to get a grasp on myself.
  I took deep puffs of breathe trying to calm myself once more.
  It was a bad idea coming to this club if Yoongi was here he would've scolded me like a child.
  I always hated that.
I leaned my back against the wall feeling a sickening freeze come over me, my body was getting randomn chills.
  A reaction from too many shots of vodka.
  My vision blurred as the pounding of the music against my ear drums made my head ache.
  My eyes drooped as I saw him.
My chest bled inside as I extended my hands wanting my fingertips to brush against his cool skin.
  "Yoongi.." My voice pleaded in such desperation.
  I closed my eyes just for the music to drown out as everything went black.

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"She got drunk". The voice seemed so distant as I slowly moved myself within my sleep.
  "Again? She's always getting drunk." This time it was a more soft, delicate voice.
  I rolled over to my side opening my eyes blinking a few times until Jin and Sohee came into vision.
   I groaned feeling as if a hammer came against the back of my head.
  Jin realizing I was awake gave me a small glare to express his dissapointment.
  I looked at my clock which was blinking in red neon a few minutes past noon.
  "Don't worry I called your job and told them your sick." Jin muttered pulling a cover over me.
   "I'm sorry..Jin" I silently said as he pushed the small hairs out of my face.
  Jin didn't sat a word but just nodded solemnly.
  I could tell by the look on his face he was upset with me for getting wasted.
  He was always is the person who came by to check up on me, it gets lonely in the shop.
  He just wanted his sister to be happy.
 
"We have to go shopping for a few things, but will be back tomorrow" Jin turned leaving with Sohee.
   I watched as he left draping an arm around Sohee, I smiled at the two.
  A smile to hide the fact that it hurt inside.
   It hurt inside to see that they made it through the years and Yoongi and I didn't even get the chance.
  It's been four years since he's ever woken up, the doctors say they will never know what damage it's doing to his brain until he wakes up and thats if he wakes up.
  It all hurt.
It all was too much for me, everyday felt like I was living without purpose.
  That if it were my choice I'd lay myself down and just dream my days away.
   Dream the dreams of fantasies.
His touch, his smell, his smile.

All the things that gave me purpose, but now he tool away what he once placed.
Love.

I still had the small blue bracelet he gave to me when we were fourteen.
  I hold on to it but it doesn't help the tears at all.
  A hard knock on my door cut through my thoughts, I crawled out of bed not caring to fix myself up.
   Frost began barking as the impatient person knocked another time.
  I picked Frost up placing the small puppy Suga had once gave me in my arms.
  I unlocked the door twisting the knob to pull it open.
  There stood in front of me two young men.
   "Anneyeoung, are you writer Kim Solbi?" The first one asked his unnatural frosty white hair made me think he was an idol from the company I worked for.
  "Song writer Kim Solbi". I corrected him running a hand and through my tossled hair.
   "We came to see if we could get some ideas." This time the shorter one spoke his eyes big and concentrative.
   "So let me get this straight the company sent you to my house to get some songs out of me? Tsk, unproffesional" I said not realizing how unprofessional I was calling callings into work sick just because of a bad hangover.
   "Well, we got your address from the women who works in the front desk. So no one actually knows were here, we just really wanted to work with you for our repackage album." I sighed deeply realizing these were EXO members in front of me.
  South Korea's most loved boy band, I heard a few of there songs but never got into the thought of becoming a fan.
   "Come in, it's a bit of a mess" I moved aside as they awkwardly entered their eyes finding the mess.
  My lyric sheets were out on the coffee table while my piano sat on the floor with my laptop I used to create my mixes.
   I got hired by S.M entertainment a month ago to work as a full time song writer under their label.
   I had produced a few songs for SHINee and gave a few ideas to SNSD.
   I guess the company were expecting me to help EXO next.
   I started writing songs a few months after I bought the store Ms.Min had owned, it was easier to forget about Suga when I wrote.
   People said my song writing made them cry most of the time, I always seemed to express my depression in the lyrics.
   "A few more members might come." The tall one said as he played with Frost.
  I found it cute.
I went to the kitchen to hide the bottles of liquor, last thing I needed was for them to tell the company I was a drunk.
  I couldn't afford to lose my job.

I rubbed away some of my eyeliner with a wet rag and tied my hair back trying to look decent.
   I sat on the couch across from the two, they were both admiring Frost.
  "Where did you get him?" The shorter one asked smiling at me.
   "I got him as a gift, a token of rememberance" A smile tugged at the edge of my lips as I thought of what Suga said when he gave me Frost as a puppy.
  'For when you miss me.'

  I miss you Min Yoongi and nothing in the world can fill the whole in my chest.

"You never asked for our names, I'm Chanyeol and this is Kyungsoo" The one named Chanyeol bowed his head lightly towards me.
  "I would usually prefer for you to call me D.O but since we will be meeting personally for the production of the album call me Kyungsoo." Kyungsoo gave me his famous heart shaped-smile.
  He could really confess his love with those lips.
  "I'm Solbi".

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A|N: Honestly I don't like how I wrote this Chapter I thought I sucked sorely I had so many ideas for it but It came out plain which I hate but I hope you guys like it.
Please Comment what you want to see from Hold Me Tight that you didn't see in Let Me Know.
Comment ideas,and advice.
What you want to see from SolGa or ChanBi.
So I wanted to start the story off with a more layed back feel I don't want to throw you guys head first into the current.
You guys may never recover.
I started it off with her meeting Chanyeol and Kyungsoo on a work matter.
Some EXO members will probably will be briefly in the story but Chanyeol will be a lead.
Also don't worry Suga will be in the next chapter just be patient cause I gotta build the story up.
At first I had no idea how to start the story.
-pow