My work exists in the blurry space between memory and madness, between truth and imagined relief. I write not to explain myself, but to preserve what I'm afraid to lose: fleeting feelings, fragmented thoughts, and the chaos of being human in a world that spins too fast. Bulalo at Bulalakaw, my debut collection, is a testament to this instinct-each piece an attempt to hold onto something before it disappears.

The stories I tell are not always kind. They're messy, strange, sorrowful, absurd, sometimes angry. There are ghosts, jokes, longing, envy, love, and shame in my writing-sometimes all at once. These aren't polished parables or perfect pieces; I've long stopped chasing perfection. Instead, I strive for emotional honesty, for a voice that's imperfect but real.

It took me years to open up. I used to be scared-selfish, even-with my work. I wanted my stories to be mine alone, untouched by critique, safe from the vulnerability of being seen. But with time, I realized that what I feared-being read, being known-was also what I needed. If memory fades and stories disappear, what good is a truth no one hears?

Now, I want to stretch. I want to explore styles far outside my comfort zone and expand my range by learning from voices across cultures. I long to immerse myself in different ways of storytelling-to listen deeply and create in conversation with artists whose truths don't mirror mine but still move me.

Writing, for me, is an act of remembrance and resistance-to silence, to forgetting, to the fear of not mattering. It's a personal ritual that now longs to be shared.
  • Philippines
  • JoinedApril 18, 2014




Stories by P. Pagarigan
Bulalo at Bulalakaw by PeterPenguinPagariga
Bulalo at Bulalakaw
a mother-and-son story depicting the hardship of life and their wonderful yet painful relationship.
ANG MGA KAIBIGAN KONG KULAY ASUL AT BERDE by PeterPenguinPagariga
ANG MGA KAIBIGAN KONG KULAY ASUL A...
"ANG MGA KAIBIGAN KONG KULAY ASUL AT BERDE" is a metaphorical narrative that explores the inner exp...
The Perfect Heartbreak by PeterPenguinPagariga
The Perfect Heartbreak
"The Perfect Heartbreak" is a quiet, bittersweet reflection on a past love-one that ended with pain...