Evelyn

the canadian stereotypes must be true yknow
          they say the kindest ppl are from canada
          and u were the kindest
          kinder than i could ever be

sometimes at night
          i wonder
          if maybe
          its my fault u left
          like i dont mean something i said
          but i do
          maybe if i'd been here more
          chatted more
          been kinder
          been a better friend
          if i'd done something more than just telling u to stop
          maybe
          maybe 
          you'd still be here
          i just hope ur not dead
          bc if u are
          i feel like its my fault
          and if u arent 
          its my fault anyway

evie...
          ive grown so much since i last talked to u. i wish u were still here
          i dont have anyone to vent to anymore
          im not on here often
          and ppl dont care which is probably fair cos my problems are so simple and stupid compared to what others r going through 
          and i cant talk to anyone irl, they'll think im insane
          they think im happy cos thats what i pretend i am, i suck it up
          and its not that bad, i dont have actual depression or anything 
          and i miss u so much 
           u were just someone online 
          but i feel like i was closer to you then any of my irl friends
          im ranting again and u wont read this and idek why im doing this 
          im losing motivation
          i failed a subject this term, i cant write full poems anymore, only snippets that suck
          my stories havent been updated in months, so i write new stories for motivation
          but i lose it and im left with unfinished drafts
          and school hasnt even started back yet and im already stressed
          i feel like a jack of all trades, master of none
          good at music but not great
          smart but not the smartest
          good at netball but not good enough
          good at writing but not amazing
          big reader but i dont read enough books and im not obsessed enough
          good at drama but not chosen for the role
          and i suck at everyhting else
          i wish u were still here
          u woulda told me i was amazing and it is fine and ill be alright
          and the thing is i woulda believed you bc when u said that it felt like u meant it
          when my irl friends say im good at somehting i feel like its an act
          but ur not here and this is stupid and i should be emailing you but i dont want my mum finding it bc im not ready for that
          im not ready for anything really
          and im gonna reach the word limit just like ive reached my own limit mentally physically emotionally, you name it i've reached it
          im writing a book abt depression but i think ill get it wrong or itll be insensitive
          and and and
          and im srry i shouldnt have done this
          this is ur mb and im ruining
          making it abt me again
          so
          miss u
          love u
          always and forever
          - ava

Hey, 
          I hope ur okay…even if I don’t know u too well but judging from pay experience you  are a rlly rlly awesome and kind person and pls don’t hurt yourself :(( 
          It’s not gonna help, even if it seems so. If u r reading this know that u are loved. So much. All of us here love you. 
          So pls don’t do anything. The world needs u!!!!!!

Its been ages

Please be okay

Evie i really miss you
          Please come back

Hiiiiiii hru luv?? I miss u :(
          And aren't you the one who posted a book of drawings?? Those were so good!!! I was just thinking abt them. I hope youre ok 

miss u sososososo much

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