Ed POV
She sat on our cream colored couch staring blankly at the television. It was playing a romantic comedy and the characters on screen were all bright and happy and laughing. She wasn't. Her eyes were glazed over and her face emotionless.
I tapped my knuckle against the wall and she looked over at me. I pushed myself from the wall and walked over to her, her eyes watching me the entire time. I sat down beside her and touched her waist gently.
"Babe?" I asked quietly. She looked down at her hands. I sighed softly and stood up pulling her with me.
"C'mon. We're going to bed." I told her quietly, letting her lean against me for support as I walked her to the bedroom. I began undressing her and getting her into her pajamas. She didn't protest. She just sat on our royal purple silk duvet. I lifted her arms above her head and pulled her shirt from her body. I found one of my bigger shirts and slipped that onto her. It usually comforted her to wear my clothes. They smelled deep and musky and I always found her sniffing them when she missed me most.
I lay in bed after getting her dressed and I tugged her down with me. She hadn't been her since the accident. Her best friend had been killed in an angry suicide attempt. She really hadn't done much since then. Mostly moping around the house and crying silent tears every night before she fell asleep.
Almost as if she could hear my thoughts the tears began falling down her cheeks. She bit her lip to contain her sobs and pretended like she was okay but I knew she wasn't. I sat up and pulled her into my lap, cradling her in my arms. She let out a choked cry and lay her head in the crook of my neck letting her tears stain my light gray shirt. I rubbed her back soothingly and pressed tiny kisses to her forehead.
"It's not fair. She left me all alone and now she's completely alone and I just-" I hushed her mumbled words and sobs by swiping my thumb along her cheek to push away the salty tears.
"You're not alone. It wasn't you fault." I told her.
"I could've been there. I should've been there, Ed." She whispers. "I was supposed to be there for her."
"But you can't change the past, love. She loved you so much. She wouldn't want you to be unhappy. She'd want to see that beautiful smile of yours." I grinned softly and the corners of her lips tilted up in a small smile.
I continue rubbing her back until I hear her soft snores telling me she's fallen asleep. I lay her down and she immediately shuffles in her sleep to place her head on my chest and her arm lies lazily across my torso. I smile and lean back onto my pillow, letting my arm rest around her shoulder. I kiss her forehead.
"And I will try to fix you..." I sing quietly to her as I fall asleep.
