Randomness 2. The sequel no one wanted.

'Inclusion.' A Poem.

^holy shite yes^

'I just want to be included.
Is that too much to ask?'
I think to myself
As I bask
In the hole that is YouTube
Videos galore
While my family is in the living room
Talking some more.
I would walk out there
And try to jump in
But I'm not part of the discussion
It's the way it's always been.
I know my family loves me
And that love is returned
But I feel like sometimes
It has to be earned.
Normally, when I'm out there
No one is home.
When I leave the room
They come back and roam.
Mom asked me to reply to a group chat
With the fam.
A chat I wasn't in.
It hit me like a bam.
I'm really not a part
Of the family I love.
They say they want me here
But I feel like I'm being shoved.
Shoved away, in a way,
Away from them all.
When I hear them laugh in that room
I start to feel small.

....I start to believe that I don't matter.
That I'm a just a burden....

But my mom reassured me
And helped me stop hurtin'

Yes, I was a surprise
But not a bad one, it seems

It was just a shock
That'd I would be part of the team

Mom and Dad surely were excited
When they found out the good news

Brother wanted a brother
But hey, he loves his sister too

Sister was thrilled
Another girl was on the way

After hearing all these things,
I'm glad I'm here to stay.

I arrive home, check my phone
And see the messages from before.

I was added to the chat
So I wouldn't be left out anymore.

(Being the youngest, and being apart from your siblings in age by like 7 years, means you don't get to be involved in everything. Today, when I noticed that group chat that I wasn't included in, I just felt... left out. More so than usual. My family tries their best to involve me, but since I'm so much younger than the other two (three of you count my brothers fiancée) I can't truly be in the loop about everything. But it was mom to the rescue today. She really reassured me that I do matter in this family and I wasn't a.... a mistake. Sure, I was a surprise, but not a mistake... Thank you for reading that poem. I started thinking of the first line when I saw the chat and it evolved into this. I feel these kind of things a lot and I haven't thought about writing it down. So in Doki Doki Literature Club style, it turned into a poem. Again, thank you for reading this. I felt very vulnerable while writing and I appreciate those who took the time to read it ❤️)