Dandelion In The Darkness [Completed]

Chapter 9: My Dying Wish

Peeta and I didn't really get to have a honeymoon after our wedding due to Coin saying that there's not much time left and that she needs as many soldiers as she can. She's allowing Peeta to be part of it all which I had a problem with which is why I'm here sitting across from her to tell her what I really think

"Mrs Mellark, I am not forcing it upon him in the slightest. I asked him and he said yes, it's his choice whether or not he wants to fight" she says

"You've got to be kidding me! Our son can't already lose his parents! He's just a baby" I snap at her

"It was your choices that led to that. Now it's Peeta's choice to join us or not, he's doing a righteous thing" she replies

"No! He's doing what you want him to do. This is my husband we're talking about! My life partner and my babys' father. This is how people I love get hurt or die, by getting involved with war, we're talking about my life here! I don't want you taking the things that I love most and I won't let you" I growl at her

"You know, Mrs Mellark. I don't like this defiance that you show against me, you may be the mockingjay, the face of this rebellion but I'm in charge here and I won't be ordered around by a teenage girl" she says with hatred spilling out of her mouth

"Yeah well using power like this gets you no where... Snow is falling and if you ever try to touch anyone I care and love then you will too" I threaten before leaving and slamming the door. I go into the training quarters where everyone is being taught the proper fighting they'll need to go into this war, I suit up and get my anger out by fighting. When I finish I see Peeta walk up to me with a concerned look on his face

"Katniss, are you okay? You're acting like someone has made you really angry. More angry than you usually would be over something someone done" he says as we sit down

"I went to Coin to tell her that I don't want you in this with us... she said no" I reply

"What? Why don't you want me with you?" He frowns

"Because! I lost you once and that was absolute hell for me and now you could die in this war. I can't lose you forever... Rye can't lose his father" I look at him desperate for him to just say that he won't go but of course that's not the case

"Katniss... remember those vows we took at our wedding? To honour and cherish. I know your afraid of losing me or even both of us dying, that Rye won't have parents if we do. The thing that I'm trying to say is that those vows aren't just words to officiate our marriage but they have a deeper meaning, we can't work on something like this with only one of us involved, it's either both of us or none of us at all. Rye has so many other people who love him just as much as we do and he'll be looked after, just don't think of both of us or one of us dying out there... think of it as we're finding our way back to him. I love you with all my heart, Katniss. I'm not letting you do this without me" he replies, I look at him with a small smile and nod

"I love you, too. I need you beside me, forever" I say and connect our lips together, I don't really care if everyone can see us because I want everyone to know that this man that I kiss has stolen my heart and that I'm completely fallen in love with him.

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I smile as Peeta dresses Rye for the day, since having Rye this whole parenting thing has gotten better for both Peeta and I. For only five weeks since having our little baby boy, he's brought already a light that Peeta and I need to get through this war. Although I'm afraid for our son losing both of his parents, I know that if that does happen there will be people here to take care of him, my sister, my mom, even Gale. Rye will never be alone and I'll make that my dying wish, I won't leave this world unless I know that my son will have someone there for him

"Take a look, mommy! Ready to steal the hearts of the world" Peeta smiles sitting Rye on his lap, supporting him seeing as he's not quite old enough to hold his own weight himself

"My baby boy. Already getting too big too fast" I reply taking our son, he lays his head on my chest as I sway side to side

"Having a baby suits you. I knew you'd be an amazing mother to Rye" he says as he holds me from behind, laying his chin on my shoulder

"At first I really didn't want him but looking back now, I wish I could just go back in time and just slap myself, tell myself that this baby will be the best thing about mine and your relationship" I admit, he just chuckles and kisses my cheek

"I'm happy that we're finally together. I thought I really lost you when I was captured, I thought I'd never see the birth of the baby. Do you know what got me through all of that torture?" He replies, I turn to face him and shake my head

"You. Every night I'd remember every inch of you... I'd picture the shape and colour or I'd picture your eyes. When I memorised everything about you... I done it all over again. Everyday, it helped me be strong and fight back against them" he explains

"I'm sorry... for everything I've done to you in the past" I frown, he just gives me a small smile instead then leans down to kiss me, something I'll never get tired of doing

"It's in the past, Katniss. I don't hold you to it. We just need to keep moving forward, for us and for Rye"

I'm not sure if I'm going to write much about what happens, I just don't want to rewrite everything that we already know happens :))