Vocaloid: SHADOWS IN THE SPOTLIGHT [Miku X Luka]

Insomnia - #8

A/N: The following contains sensitive topics such as depression, self-harm and suicide, and also this fic ships female X female and contains strong language, suicide and abuse, so if you have a problem with that then you may want to click off this story. You have been warned.

Luka's PoV

The following few hours with Miku were enjoyable. As far as I can remember, I've never spent time to hang out with a friend - I'm happy to say I was not at all disappointed.

Miku and I spent the time watching some films, though through most of it we were talking and laughing together, like old friends.

One film was about a mentally ill girl who was bullied at highschool, until a boy came into her life and makes it worthwhile.

I caught Miku tearing up at one scene, burying her face in a cushion. I asked her if she was okay, though she denied her state with a laugh.

However, all too soon, Miku stands up and declares, "Hey, it's about time I leave now. My parents won't be happy if I'm too late back." She scratches the back of her head, smiling apologetically.

"Oh." I can't hide the tone of disappointment from sounding in my voice. Miku takes note of this and hugs me quickly.

"Thanks for inviting me, it's been fun!" She smiles as she pulls away. I smile back at her as she grabs her bag. She turns back to me and waves. "See you tomorrow." She says, before turning her back and closing the front door.

"Goodbye." I call after her, my voice echoing through the small, otherwise silent room. Motionless, I stand in the middle of the room for a moment or two, before sighing and smiling to myself as I open my schoolbag and taking out my Sakura coloured schoolwork folder.

I place the folder on the coffee table and perch on the edge of the sofa. Scrawled across the folder in black marker pen are insults, ranging from 'ugly' to 'whore'. Every time I take out the folder, a discomforting shudder is sent down my spine.

Shaking my head vigorously in attempt to shake the stupid ideas out of my head, I take out the English essay due the next day, Wednesday, and continue writing from where I left off earlier in class, when Dell started yelling unpleasant things at me from across the classroom. Fun.

Tick, tock. That's the sound of the clock ticking away, causing my train of thought to unnecessarily stop.

I've always hated the sound of the clock. It reminds me that no matter what I do, time is still ticking on, with or without me keeping up with it.

Half an hour turns into an hour, and time quickly dissolves into two hours. By the time I drop my pen, my eyelids are heavy and I just want to curl up and sleep for an eternity. But it's not like that'll happen - not with my insomnia.

"Another sleepless night." I mutter to myself ten minutes later as I climb into bed and turn the light out, only to repeat the same cycle as I have the past year or so.

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I think it's safe to say that my life is a hellhole, and so many people would go out of their way to make sure it stays that way.

The worst part is, now I'm dragging Miku down with me.

"When I was walking to school, Rin ran up behind me and pushed me over. I almost fell into the road - there was a lorry driving down the street at the time. I was terrified..." Miku whispers to me as we make our way from homeroom to our next lesson, which just so happens to be science.

"She did? Thank god you're okay, Miku..." I sigh, guiltily looking down at the younger girl. She looks back at me with wide blue eyes filled with fear and upset.

"They really hate me..." Miku mumbles, averting her gaze to the floor. I bite my lip, unsure of how to respond. "They want to see me suffer, don't they?"

"Yes." I respond, deciding to be honest with her. "That's what they want - a reaction. I know how hard it is, you know I do, but... you need to try and hide the fact it bothers you. Don't let them have what they want."

Miku glances at me, her eyes dull and lost. There are dark circles under her eyes; she looks exhausted. "I'll try." She promises. "But sometimes those efforts aren't enough. It's easier said than done." I tense up at her melancholic mood. As if reading my mind, she shakes her head and her frown is replaced by a smile. "I'm sure it'll be fine though, ne?"

I blink at her sudden change of attitude, but force myself to smile at her. "Yeah, sure." I respond, going along with what she says. Miku nods, satisfied by this response, and we make our way to Science, the bounce returning in her step.

The silence shared between us as we walk down the corridor is broken by Miku yawning. I look at her, and she looks at me back, the tired look retuning to her eyes once again. "Didn't sleep well?" I ask her.

Miku shakes her head. "No..." She admits. "I had so much on my mind last night, it prevented me."

"Oh..." I mutter.

Miku tilts her head. "You don't look much better." She comments. "Could you not sleep either?"

"I've not slept properly in over a year. It's nothing new." I tell her, shrugging my shoulders. Miku's eyes widen momentarily and she averts her gaze, murmuring an 'oh, sorry...'.

"Aww, look, how sweet!" A voice behind us makes up stop in our tracks. "The freak has found someone as pathetic as her! Aww, friend goals!"

Meiko's mocking, high-pitched voice sounds behind us. We look over our shoulders to see the brunette heading towards us, with SeeU and Fukase following her like shadows.

"Oh god..." I hear Miku whisper, her voice breaking out of fear. Meiko hears her and smirks, as do her minions.

"I always knew you were a traitor, Hatsune Miku. I wasn't fooled by your cute, little-girl-lost behaviour on your first day here at school. I distinguished your stupidity long before Rin." Meiko raises her eyebrows, brown eyes staring into Miku's terrified blue orbs.

Miku lowers her head. I clench my fists and force myself to look at Meiko. "Leave her alone. She never betrayed you - you were the ones who betrayed her." I state.

Fukase laughs. "What the heck have we done? She should have respected us more. We gave her popularity - what did she give us back?" He asked.

SeeU giggles. "She failed to see this. She betrayed us. She left us, the cool kids, to join a mistake like you. Maybe you belong together, losers." She sticks her tongue out at us both.

"And maybe you belong in the pits of hell." I mumble under my breath, before turning around and heading into our science classroom. Miku runs after me swiftly, and we take out (edit: OUR*) seats.

"Are you okay?" I ask the shell-shocked girl. She takes a deep breath before forcing a smile and looking at me.

"Yeah, I'm absolutely fine!" She says. "Nothing to be worried about!" She quickly looks away and stares down at the desk, her expression dissolving into a blank one.

"Okay then..." I shrug my shoulders, just as the teacher enters the room and begins registration.

Don't lie to me.

A/N: So this week has been pretty hectic and I haven't found much time to update, but here ya go! It's not the best chapter ever but... I hope you guys have enjoyed it! ^^"