The Pregnant Virgin

Chapter 12 Worse Case Scenario

(Liv's POV)

The next couple of weeks passed before my very eyes. I hadn't heard anything from my aunt or Shepley. We had met up just like I told him I would, sadly, when we sat down and I actually explained everything to him properly he didn't take the news too well. He had stood up from the table we had branded as ours and turned around, mumbling that we would 'talk soon'. It had been exactly three weeks, four days, seven hours, thirty-five minutes and two...three...four seconds and nothing. I didn't expect him to jump with joy...I knew what he felt for me. I'm a virgin...not blind or stupid. Although I loved Shepley, I never had the heart to tell him that I only loved him like a brother loved his sister. Nonetheless, I did expect him to be there as he promised he would before I started telling him everything.

Regardless, he didn't come back, nor did he look for me. As Jamie put it, it's his loss...not mine.

Life with the Valentine family wasn't as difficult as I imagined it would be. Although Megan wasn't around as much in the beginning, that has certainly changed. Every time I am in a room alone with James, she miraculously appears out of thin air. At first I would just shrug it off, but even when I'm alone with Emily, she just pops out of no where. But Megan aside, Jamie and Em have been more than welcoming. They both go out of their way to try and make me as comfortable as possible. I even had to tell them to just act normal. I'm living in their house without a worry in the world. I just can't for the life of me understand how I'm going to tell them that I'm not going to give my kid up. Most importantly, James.

He has been so good to me and still, I can't bring myself to tell him that I'm not going to give them up...I can't. I grew up without my mother...yes, I had my aunt and I loved her...I love her despite what she did to me. But that was not the same as having your mother with you. I know what it's like to live your life knowing there is something better for you out there. That things could have been different if life's circumstances would be different. I could have been different. I remind myself of that knowledge as I make my way to Jamie's office. I knew he would be in there, most likely grading papers. I had come to the realization that that is what he did when he fought with Megan or was stressed...which was usually caused by Megan's nagging. Drowning himself in work was the way he coped and being a teacher in Landen college made sure he would always be occupied with something the grade.

Although I was excepted into Landen College, I knew I had to get my life together before I decided to move forwards with school. I had more important decisions to worry about...my child being one of those decisions.

As I neared Jamie's office door, I took a deep breath and prepared for the worst. Best case scenario, he let me stay and he helped me raise our baby...worse case scenario, he told me to pack my shit and get the hell out of my house. The only reason he asked me to move in was so that I would be looked after by them and in turn, they knew that I was taking care of who would in time be there child and I would be only the women who bore him or her and then discarded of them. I had realized that that was my biggest fear. If I gave up my baby, one day he or she would show up at my door and ask why they weren't good enough for me. Or worst...they would realize that they were better off without me. I hated that I even thought that...but it was true.

So, I slowly exhaled and knocked twice on the large wooden door.

"Come in." I heard Jamie from the other side. I softly pushed open the door and poked my head in.

"Jamie?" I asked, slipping in through the small crack I had created, fully being aware that in a couple of months, I would be so big, I would have to open the whole door to get in.

I couldn't wait! I couldn't help but smile at the thought.

"Livvy!" he smiled, looking up from the stack of papers in front of him. He took off the glasses that sat at the tip of his nose and gave me his undivided attention. "What can I do for you Liv?" he asked, sitting up.