Poems

No Emotion but a raging mind

I finally have someone that I want to trust and let in,
But I can't no matter how hard I try let him in.

I can't trust anyone no matter what I do,
I can't show anyone my emotions and it's not a surprise I don't even now what most of them are.

How am I to control something I don't know of,
That I have never really had time to figure out.

They are so foreign to me,
Like a new language.

I try to learn what they want but as soon as I think i have a handle,
The word slips out of my mind and I have to learn it over.

He is so nice and kind,
He is always there.

Why can't you stop thinking brain,
Just let me trust.

The thoughts in my brain,
So harsh and sad.

Stop saying he doesn't like us,
He does... right?

You can trust him,
But can he trust you?

Yes of course,
Then let him the truth.

No I can't,
It will hurt him.

You mean it will hurt you,
You know he deserves better.

But he and my brother are all I have,
I can't lose that.

Well then don't get attached,
Keep your guard up and don't let it down.

But I want to let him it,
But I can't hurt or lose him either.

Just go to sleep,
That is all you do anyway.

No it's just I am tired all the time,
Plus it keeps me away from you, Ann and all the worry some thoughts you put in my head.

Haha but me and Dee just want you to worry and soon die because no one will care anyway.

Just shut up!
I am going to sleep!