Baek Seung Jo Diary [COMPLETED]

Baek Seung Jo Diary 7

You kept asking about Yoon Ha Ra, when I ask if you are jealous, you say no. Silly, your face says everything about how Yoon Ha Ra has affected you. You gave me a chance to tease you today, haha.

"Are you jealous now? Ah, you should be, after all we are in a relation that we even kissed."

You move your face over a little, expecting something; you think I will kiss you?

Silly, I look like that kind of person? I'm not an easy guy, haha

Look at you embarrass expression, even your ears turn red, you're full of expectation expression is just like a small kid, and this is really interesting. But, I'll end here.

"It's really a pity to see this myself."

This moment, she definitely ran back to her room and jumping around in anger when she realizes that I'm teasing her?

Teasing her is as interesting as playing with a toy.

Why didn't you come to our elective class, what are you doing? I actually felt a little disappointed; will you be at the canteen during lunch?

Oh Ha Ni, you still can't run away from me. Seeing her mumbling about the menu, she really looks silly.

Can't she read without saying it? Suddenly appearing behind her, when she sees me, she's so happy like a doggy met her owner.

Like imitating me, saying "me too!", then sticking out her tongue shyly. But, why did Bong Joon Gu appear again, following behind a girl, he's really that free?

Oh Ha Ni, you are so happy? Everything is good?

Didn't know how to play tennis, but you insist on getting tennis attire, even though it's special. But, Oh Ha Ni, you walked to the wrong place, it will be very tough for you.

For you not to join in, I gave you so many hints, but you still think that Wang Kyung is so kind and nice.

Okay, I will show you the true self of the senior that you respected.

Oh Ha Ni praises for senior is like prick to my ears. So I purposely hits the ball towards the direction that senior couldn't catch it. Looking at Kyung Soo senior running here and there, it makes me feel so much better.

When respecting others entity, we fell in love. Someone said that. If love means that throwing away my entity, to fulfill others freedom, that feeling is called hate, the love will only fail.

Compare to Sartre, Yoon Ha Ra is more concern about the relationship between Sartre and Beauvoir

"Relationship between Sartre and Beauvoir?"

"Compared to Sartre, more concern about the relationship between Sartre and Beauvoir?"

Indeed, what women is concern about is not the author itself, but the relationship between the author and others.

Acting like she's really concern about Sartre, but actually is on other people. To me, this woman is also just another smart female.

You always say that I'm fickle in love, but actually you are no different. Even when going to elective class, you also bring Bong Joon Gu along. Someone who couldn't even understand English, how can he understand something so difficult? Attending this lesson together, other than speechless, there's nothing else I can say.

I don't understand why I feel so frustrated watching Oh Ha Ni and Bong Joon Gu together.

Professor asked a very ridiculous question, you asked me about it when you don't understand, but I acted like I didn't see it.

In front of her, I always becomes like a childish boy.

You were still so happy moment ago, your expression change the second you saw Ha Ra. All your thoughts are on your face and yet you always deny it.

"To find some information for a 2 to a group project, you go study at the living room."

Acted like I'm explaining to my brother, but actually is to tell Ha Ni about the reason why Ha Ra is here.

So, please don't make yourself feel bad because of your pride. Don't be mistaken.

An ants crawling into a lifeless flower made of clay, this ants says that the flower is real, and this flower seems as if it gotten life from it.

Although it's small and slow, but living life with great value, just like someone.

No idea how much energy, how long journey this and spends to get into this flower, just like walking into my though heart.

Leaving? Really leaving?

A feeling that I couldn't tell. Keep asking myself.

"Disappointed?"

"Why... why must I feels sad... it's good anyway, anyway I'm just going back to my original lifestyle?"

But, my voice sounds weaker and weaker, like there's something stuck in my throat. Also felt that as if it's a friend that has been with me for a long time leaving, leaving me alone in the dark night.

Let it be, let it be...

Although I'm saying this, but still feeling a little bad. Take care. Just how this door closes, my heart might also close...

Back to the time without you.

Without you, like suddenly overcome by all the uneasiness, feels a little awful.

I'll be fine; soon, I'll be fine.

You might have something to say to me before leaving, so I kept walking to and fro outside your door.

For this period, I should say "sorry" to you, or should I say "it's really interesting".

But, I still feel very awful.

Why this sudden, why, I make her feel so bad? Didn't say any nice words to her, keep fooling her, is it too hard to bear?

That's why I let you leave.

It's really okay, anyway Oh Ha Ni is just an entourage right?

Me who can solve anything myself, this is the first time I'm asking something that I couldn't even answer myself, felt a little nervous.

The sun shining on me seems like it turned cold.

The doll that I gave to you, you bring it around with you, why did you leave it here?

Even got into an accident just to pick this up, you don't remember? The day when we were catching the doll, you kept shouting "left, right, towards the side a little" you are even more excited than me, tapping my shoulder.

So happy, at that moment, it's like you cleared away the bad mood that accumulates over years.

Doesn't want to show my truth feeling, that day is chaos.

Looking at you who couldn't even control your own feeling, it felt really amazing, keeps tapping my shoulder, keeps talking.

You who invaded my territory, a little irritating, but it also shocks me a little.

I finally can make myself smile at you, but the doll that you left behind seems like telling me, from now on, we have ended.

My heart hurts. My heart that normally doesn't feel anything, today it felt like being stab with a knife. Very miserable.