That feeling of total distruction, pitiful woe and sering fury so strong that it makes your chest heave, your body is violently twitching and shaking. I rocked back and forth with the corpse of my protector and love in my lap. I knew I should burry him soon, but I couldn't do it yet. His death frozen face was mesmerizingly haunting and I couldn't bare part with it, not right now.
It wasn't like losing Hisoka as a protector. It felt like I had lost a peice of my very soul. Every single time I had stopped crying I would look down at his face and feel so numb, it was bliss. Staring at his face feeling, hearing, thinking nothing. It never lasted for very long though. I couldn't be that lucky, I never was that lucky. My very species is cursed with the worst luck it seemed.
"Oh my god! Lady are you alright?" A man ran up to me and asked. I froze in my place not even taking in a breath. He placed a hand on my shoulder then pressed two fingers against Mar's neck. "Shit, he's dead as a door nail." He muttered under his breath.
"I don't need you telling me that he's dead I ALL...READY..... KKNNNNOOOWWWWWW!" I screamed slapping away his hand with my vector. He force snapped his wrist back leaving him screaming. I rose from the place I had been kneeled down and advanced upon him.
"I'm just trying to help!" He cried out pitifully. I was suddenly filled with such a uncontrolled rage that I blacked out and when I recovered I was standing in a feild with a deep hole dug and Mar's body in it. I was covered head to toe with blood and fleshy material. I had killed that man in a most brustal way and I didn't care. In fact I wanted to kill again, and I wanted that next kill to be the one who killed my protector. I wanted Hisoka's head on a key chain for me to bang against the walls and corners as I walked.
I shook with rage and blood lust flowed from me with such intensity that animals flew or scurried away from me. I quickly burried Mar and left having said all I had to say to his now slowly rotting body. I was hovering above the trees going as fast as I could keeping a careful eye out for a certain ass clown.
"Hisokkkaaaaa! Your toy wants you to come out an play! I promise I won't rip off your head right away! You see hahahahah! If I did that you wouldn't feel the unimaginable pain I plan on bringing you! Hahahahhaha isn't that funny? Hahahaahha it's hilarious! I can't wait to see what your guts haha look like! Aaahhhhhhaahhahahah!" I called from above laughing historically. That's when I felt it, that Nen, that blood lust. I grinned so wide that I could of sworn my lips were splitting apart.
I swooped down to where I felt him. He stood there, no longer bleeding but still covered in cuts. I giggled at his wounds and summoned my barbed wires. "That blood lust, it's soo very.....tasty." Hisoka moaned.
"You know what else is tasty, your intrails!" I growled sending my wires at him in the form of a many headed snake. I sent everything I had at him all at once.
"No no no, you can't go all out at first. You need to go slow first then build it up." Hisoka scolded throwing another rock towards my forehead. I knocked it away with my hand and continued my advancement on him. I sported a twisted grin as I watched him dodge my attacks or get hit.
"I'm sorry, I play by my own rules. You don't like it, then get off the play ground." I yelled at him then promptly got snacked in the forehead by another rock. Once again my vision went black and my vectors went numb releasing the hold I had on his foot. I called my wires back and had them form a tornado around me.
"No fair, hiding behind your sheild of wires." Hisoka said with a pout in his voice.
"Get over it baby, ain't no such thing as fair in this life." I hissed. I jumped almost out of my skin whenever a card embedded itself into my shoulder.
"That's so true, my little toy has grown up I guess." Hisoka said throwing another card into my other shoulder. In quick ressession I had card thrown into me. I shook my head and my vision came back just in time for me to block a card sacrificing my hand. His cards had been able to cut through my wires.
"I'll show you grown up, watch me get big now!" I yelled making the wired snakes grow three sizes bigger. I sent them all flying at him once more. Of course he was able to dodge them no matter how they curlled back and restriked. More cards came flying at me, most hit there mark. I was having the caked on blood be washed away my own. In fact after a few minutes I was starting to feel a little weak. I began pulling the cards out of me and my barbed wires disipated. Hisoka ran up on me and started a hand to hand combat that I could only dodge his attacks.
I was punched in the forehead making me fly backwards a ways and go blind. I could feel Hisoka's blood lust and excitement. I began to fear for my life and with that fear my head cleared from its emotional haze. My heart raced in my rib cage as I felt him come closer. 'No....no I can't die! I need to fulfill my promise to my clan!' I panicked. Suddenly a flash of a woman with horns popped into my head. She was with a man who she then made a blood bond with. As quickly as the vision started it ended leaving me in darkness.
'No...I refuse! I refuse, I'd rather die' I mentally screamed getting to my feet. A vision of thousands of skeletons with horns on there heads popped into my mind. In the middle of the pile of bones was me. I was showen me withering to the very bones I stood upon. Thousands of screams sounded off in my head and it was like my woeful howls from before but the magnitude of it shook my very soul. I covered my ears in vain and started to sob.
"OKKKAAAYYY!" I screamed. The screams silenced instantly and my vision returned just in time to see Hisoka rushing towards me. I had very little time before he would be upon me. I braced myself instead of trying to dodge and bit my own tongue. The metalic taste of my blood flooded my mouth. The second Hisoka was with in range I dodged his arm and latched onto it. I glared at him with all the hate I could muster as the blood bond took hold. His face was of utter surprise, anger and lingering excitement.
I bit down into his arm as hard as I could then ripped away taking a chunk with me. I spat out the chunk of flesh and our mixed blood. I panted, body shaking with the need to hurt him. The bond between us soon flipped my anger to guilt and glee. I felt guilty about hurting him so much during the bonding and I was so happy he was mine again. I shook my head realizing what was happening in my head. I tried getting angry again but I failed. Even picturing Mar's dead body and his last words didn't fuel my hatred towards Hisoka.
I chuckled tears flowing down my face and sank down to the ground. My chuckle soon turned to a straight up laughter, like I had just heard the most funniest thing in the world. I couldn't control it as I feel to my side still laughing and crying at the same time. I laughed and laughed and it only got worse whenever I saw Hisoka's face. I soon found myself unable to get enough air to even make a noise with.
"Hmmm......have you broke?" Hisoka asked making me take a huge gulp of air. I started hyperventilating as I stood up and turned back towards the way I burried Mar. Slowly I stumbled onwards with Hisoka following me calmly. By the time I reached his grave I passed out on top of the dirt mound.

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Psychotic Protection (Hisoka X OC)
FanfictionHer name was Liz and she was classified as a monster despite both her and her parents never harming a fly, even when it ment in self defense. This coasts her mother her life then eventually her father leaving a scared 18 year old to wonder from city...