Do You Hate Me, Nagito? (Nagito Komaeda X Reader)

Part 4 : Understanding

His face says it all.

He kept his gaze on the horizon and walked calmly back to the hotel, his eyes as sharp as a falcon's. The walk from the Jabberwock Main Island, becomes more unbearable by the second. I walk together with him, as Hajime is together with Mikan, walking in front of us. He sustained a minor injury during the commotion earlier, and as Mikan is a nurse, she pestered him to let her see the wound.I managed a small smile looking at them both.

Heh, even someone like her can be assertive.

As a breeze stirred the long grass along the walkway, the lower part of his long, green sweater would ruffle calmly, ignoring the tension growing benign between us all. I pondered on our situation for a moment, dying to run away as far as my feets could carry me from this anxious feeling clawing inside me.

A killing school excursion?

I looked up to Nagito's face, wondering what is he thinking about after our ordeal. Shifting my feets, I took the liberty to read the facial expression of the others. Everyone looks tense, trying to shake away the reality that fall right onto our short lived peace. The weird bear plushie, Monokuma who called himself our headmaster, showed us how serious he is with this matter.. by shooting Monomi to pieces with his robots, displaying his authority to shake us down with his absolute power.

But the most grieving matter was, when he jokingly claimed that all of our memories during our school years was taken, deleted from our brain. No matter how absurd this situation is, there is no way our current techology could manage such feat. There is no way its true. I mean, I still remember what I ate this morning with Ma and Pa! I even saw my neighbour, Mrs Kakimoto waved at me, and wishing me all the best for school...

There is no way,right?

"Will all of us be okay? This seems so surreal.." I asked as I tugged on his sleeve. A crush or not, I do no think I have the energy anymore to care right now. He's my closest friend I have here, and I really need someone to hold me tight, keeping me safe from this madness, assure me that everything will be alright.

Although his face shows an anxious feature same as mine, I can see an unknown flicker inside his eyes. The same flicker that I felt when he prattled on his view of hope at the main island just now. No matter how normal he tried to be, I can sense a mix of excitement and pleasure inside them, a contrast of the expected effect after what just happened. I should be scared of this swings of him, but the more I know about him, the deeper my desire to understand him. I gaze into his eyes, tightening my grip on his sleeve,so that he could understand that no matter what happens, I will always be there for him.

Amused by my action, Nagito's eyes became much softer, like a child's. He took my hand into his, and raise it to his cherry lips. The lips that I long to touch..

"May our ordeal be in peace"

How I wish it could..