Bondi Girlfriends

matt dee

PG-13 mentions of self harm

you had a dark secret from your past and you always hid it from people. nobody needed to know your old habit. it disgusted you.

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it was your first night together with your boyfriend matt dee you were head over heels in love with each other and that night had just proven your love for each other.

your head was on matt's chest and his arms were around you. tracing your finger over his chest and arms you could feel his muscles and rock hard abs, you let the cover slide off your body slightly and that's when he saw them

the pale criss cross slashes all along your inside lower arm and upper thighs. you always tried to cover them up, self conscious about them and always hid them with long sleeves. if any past boyfriends had seen them they had never commented.

" what are those?" matt said

" nothing" you said sitting up and pulling the cover around you. You had never spoken to any body about that period in your life where you self harmed, it was your dirty, shameful secret that disgusted you and made you angry to look at them. you always feared that people would be disgusted by it and would hate you for what you did to yourself.

" there clearly not nothing, come on, you can tell me" matt soothed reaching out and stroking your back, his touch was soft and comforting against your skin " it wont change how I feel about you, I love you no matter what your past"

you had a now or never moment, it was time to tell someone, and you trusted matt, you felt like he would take a secret to the grave, you took a deep breath

" I used to self harm when I was younger, I was badly bullied and then home life was tough, depression took hold of me and it all got to much for me and self harming was the only release I could get" you couldn't look matt in the eye " I stopped a few years ago but when times get tough I am always tempted to start again"

you braced yourself for the shock and disgust from matt, this would most likely end your relationship here and now. But, matt sat and put his arms around your body, he pulled you close to him and kissed your forehead

" you never need to relive that period of your life again, I will always make sure your happy and never sink back into that state of mind, I don't ever want to lose you. You are the most beautiful, amazing, sexy woman I have ever met and I cant believe how lucky I am to have you as my girlfriend, especially with a face like mine!" you giggled at matt's comment " I love you so much, don't ever suffer in silence again, speak to me and I will help you, I love you"    

you were overwhelmed at how accepting matt was of your past. it felt like a massive weight off your shoulders now you had told somebody.

he leant forward and kissed you softly on the lips. after you put your head on his shoulder and you both sank back down into the bed. you had your head on his chest and his arms were wrapped protectively around you, protecting you.

if the issues raised in this story have affected you please feel free to message me and I will be willing to chat and help you. I wont share any details with anyone and wont judge you no matter what you say xxx