TRIGGER WARNING: self harm, suicide
sorry for all the drama i've started...
it's true, sophie was my best friend and she did pass away from suicide....and nattie contributed, but ig she was just trying to defend herself in a very....public way.
Nattie was right, i made up those Screenshots....when Sophie died i destroyed a lot....I was so angry at life, i cried all day all the time, or broke things, or screamed. It got so bad i started hating myself, self h4rm became an addiction to escape the mental pain, and my life started to crumble. I destroyed all my other friendships, i destroyed all my things.
i spent almost 2 weeks rereading all my messages with sophie. my parents became worried for my mental health and since they are bitches they made me get a new phone number so i could "start over". i never forgave them.
when everybody was asking for Screenshots, i panicked and made up a conversation on a fake website. I felt extremely guilty after and took it down. Sophie wouldn't have wanted me doing these things.
i resurfaced all this drama because i'm in a VERY low point in my life...it's almost been a year since sophie passed, and all my super important tests are coming up, my parents are getting divorced, and my grandma just recently passed away from cancer.
Bringing up drama and trying to hurt other people was my way to feel better about myself-- giving me reasons not to break down-- and it was super toxic and disgusting of me.
I owe nattie a huge apology, i don't expect you to forgive me, just please know i feel awful. Im so so so sorry nattie, and to anyone else i hurt or offended. I was being a Raging Bitch and im sorry.
I don't expect ANY of you guys to believe me, and i will understand if you don't.
i've moved on and i know Sophie's in peace now <33
if i could ask u guys one thing, even if i don't deserve it, please give your blessing's to Sophie. it was her birthday 4 days ago...and things have been difficult.
-v
@NATT1E
