★🕷️Bubs🕷️☆

I finished publishing my Saja Boys headcannons
          Now I'm gonna through my ships in there too bcuz I'm bored and feel like it

RYTH

Alrighty-o,
          time to get ready to post my KPDH Saja Boys headcannons bcuz I'm desperate and it kinda helps my depression a bit

Alr,
          I'm going to bed before my bad thoughts get worse and I do something I will deeply regret

Why do I even post anything anymore? No one gives a shit, and to be fair, I wouldn't give a shit about myself either...

Chat,
          I have to make a fucking somewhat high quality puppet in drama class for some fucking snotty elementary kids to have a knockoff Christmas performance of the Muppets Christmas Carol
          So,
          My teacher said we had to pair up and I was sitting with the only person I really knew in that class, which was one of my older friends [she's awesome]
          We both dirty minded asf and shit, lmao
          Also,
          during this time, right around the corner in the same building as us, in the gym, some little kids were in P.E. and ig since they were blasting music from the gym speakers they got to pick the music, so some kid decided to play a Huntr/x song from KPDH
          So,
          one of the boys in my drama class, who's loud and kinda fucking annoying, yet somehow funny asf sometimes, started screeching the lyrics
          Me and my friend looked at him like "wtf man"
          My friend then proceeded to say, "I'm not letting that fucker ruin my comfort movie."
          We then yapped about KPDH and talked about which Saja Boy was our favorite and which one we would smash XD
          But,
          Funny story,
          Me and my younger friend were yapping about the same thing before school even started
          
          Also, picture day is tomorrow and my mom is finally letting me be lazy with that shit and look like I normally do bcuz I honestly couldn't give a fuck, I'm not gonna dress up and not be myself for a day bcuz a single picture they take is gonna be my yearbook picture
          
          Anywho,
          I'm basically grounded rn for idfk how long bcuz apparently my parents setting a time limit and me turning  off my phone and only using to listen to music- which is basically therapy for me since I'm never my family's main priority and can't get actually therapy- is considered "cheating the system" and now I can't even do what helps me through my fucking day
          Fuck my life man
          Ya think going into hs I would get more freedom than I did in ms,
          but no
          now I literally have fucking nothing but my laptop that I use at night since my parents don't know
          This shit about to be my 13th reason, istfg

Alr chat
          I'm going to bed
          I have school at 8 a.m. and its currently 10 minutes away from being 1 a.m.
          Gn guys <3

I'm not even going to acknowledge the multiple mental break downs I just had, all of which no one saw. Depression decided to suddenly hit me like a train and my will to live is rapidly decreasing. I'm not gonna say why I'm feeling the way I am rn, but my brain in just spiraling and finding the worst parts of me...

I get to be in the homecoming parade this year!!
          And,
          Without me getting a say in it,
          I was voted to paint the end zone with a few other ppl
          
          And no one in my class gives a shit abt me so I'm not class royalty for the parade [I have better shit to do anyways tbh]

Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens
          ☆
          The evil it spread like a fever ahead
          It was night when you died, my firefly
          What could I have said to raise you from the dead?
          Oh could I be the sky on the Fourth of July?
          Well you do enough talk
          My little hawk, why do you cry?
          Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
          Or the Fourth of July?
          We're all gonna die
          Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head
          Was it all a disguise, like Junior High
          Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction
          Now, where am I?
          My fading supply
          Did you get enough love, my little dove
          Why do you cry?
          And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best
          Though it never felt right
          My little Versailles
          The hospital asked should the body be cast
          Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky
          Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth
          Do you find it all right, my dragonfly?
          Shall we look at the moon, my little loon
          Why do you cry?
          Make the most of your life, while it is rife
          While it is light
          Well you do enough talk
          My little hawk, why do you cry?
          Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
          Or the Fourth of July?
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          ★