So my anxiety is super high lately
I was supposed to be put on laughy gas to get out my wisdom teeth
I sat listening to Blue Side by jhope to help me calm down since I was crying nervously before. I let myself close my eyes and listen to jhopes voice, I felt good.
Suddenly, after I don't know how long passed, I could only see white blur, and hear jhopes song.
I freaked out really bad, the gas didn't work, I felt like I was dead, I felt like I was in a dream I couldn't get up from, i wondered if I was actually really in the oral office or not, I tried to move and I couldn't, everything was blurry, I could only feel something in my hands that felt like a piece of play dough. I gave it to my other hand, and back to the first confusingly. I forgot I had a tissue in my hand from crying before.
I felt a tingling feeling on the roof of my mouth and my calves, and could barely feel my hands. it felt like I was spinning fast.
I was so confused, I didn't even remember how to talk or open my eyes, since I wasn't put to sleep. I was so scared. So. Scared. Scared unlike anything I've ever felt before, and so alone.
Finally I regained my senses, and I saw the doctors looking at me worried. I was hyperventilating, trembling badly, the worst panic attack I've had. The nurse held my hand tight, and I noticed the air smelled different as she alerted me she turned on the oxygen instead of laughy gas.
Most traumatic experience in my life that only lasted 15 minutes or less.
It's been almost an hour and I'm still crying, and quiet. I feel drained.
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