vex.

so in class yesterday the first few pages of my short story in progress were workshopped by my peers. and one classmate in particular picked up every minor detail and put them all together to carefully piece together the ending i had in mind and had purposefully left foreshadowing in the first few pages about it and like... thats never happened to me before like ever
          
          as a writer it is very difficult to get proper criticism or feedback on my art. people who paint or do digital art get feedback very easily on social medias because doomscrollers will see it briefly and go "oh wow this looks awesome" or "oh wow you suck the eyes arent even" but as a writer aint NOBODY putting in the effort to actually appreciate my shit unless theyre forced to for a class (the only reason im in college lol)
          
          but yeah this is the first time someone actually took so much care and appreciation in my work and thought about it a lot and it makes me really happy to feel seen by someone for fucking once but man ive been writing stories for 13 years now come onnnn

road trip to upstate new york in 3 days YIPPEEEE any recommendations of cool places to check out in rochester or buffalo i'll gladly take them into consideration :> ALSO I DIDNT FORGET ABOUT THAT APHMAU FIC I SAID ID BRING BACK LIKE 5 MONTHS AGO ITS STILL COMING BACK... EVENTUALLY...
          
          im so hyped abt the new mystreet seasons yall...... IM SO HYPED
          
          anyway i was struggling to figure out an ending to the fic but i think i figured it out! gonna do multiple endings,, one for each boy (and maybe a bonus ending for sasha, katelyn, and aphmau) and im thinking itll be just in each ending someone different finds/saves y/n and yippee they live happily ever after idk its not gonna be super extravagant its just putting a conclusion (ive always sucked at conclusions) to a story that had very little plotline to begin with (i had 0 plans with it)
          
          anyway yeah we'll see when that comes out
          
          also final thing if yall like my work go check out my account @v3x_slay i have some mha fanfictions there and a BRAND NEW original story (i dont have a lot for it i just want feedback on how its lookin so far for the most part) sooo yeah :3 have a great dayyyy

being an adult is so fun because i get to do shit my mom would never let me do and then never tell her about it and then eventually when she finds out its like she cant do anything about it bc im an adult
          
          she tries tho cuz shes a control MANIAC and doesnt want to lose me but that ship sailed like 6 years ago oopsiessss

my girlfriend's mad cuz i told her i didnt wanna propose this summer i wanna wait another year but we're going to niagara falls over the summer and she wants to get engaged there- i jus told her id take her back next summer instead lmaoo

who's that divaaaa (its me im the diva)

You say you've never seen me change, so you should've expected this from me. But I know better than to think you were doing me a favor by cutting me out of your life so harshly. But don't you know? Haters don't discourage me; never have, never will. You never made me cry myself to sleep or reconsider the choices I've made in my life, like I'm sure you hoped. If you didn't care how I felt about what you said, I'm not sure why you bothered to say it at all, so I can only assume that you do care. But you were wrong about one thing. You thought I'd take everything you said to heart, when frankly, I didn't give a single shit about it. You only make me want to work harder to prove you wrong. I'll mail you a signed copy of my first bestseller <3
          
          You know who you are. I honestly hope that one day you have to live with regret for the things you said to me. But just know that you will never find forgiveness from me for it, even if it doesn't impact my life in the slightest. You don't impact my life in the slightest. I'm not better off without you, but I certainly was not better off with you. I hope you never find peace with yourself. Oh, and if you see this, or if one of your friends sends it to you because they saw it, one of you should send a response. It would be a hilarious topic for my next essay for my nonfiction class. Thank you :)
          
          Oh, and if you're thinking, "Wow, you sure have a lot of shit to say for someone unaffected," Then I applaud you for noticing. Truth is, I don't give a fuck, and I'm posting this completely out of hatred for you. I also think it's quite entertaining how, despite everything we went through together, you don't even exist as someone who was ever important in my life anymore, in the span of under an hour, when previously, I would have died for you. I moved on from you the instant you pressed send. Imagine going from the only decent person I knew to being on a scale lower than the worst person I knew in under an hour. You impress me, really

officially reached the matching onesies stage woop woop

im doing it im revamping different and hopefully gonna add some new chapters to it its coming back yall holy shit

im alive
          
          barely
          
          i miss when wattpad was fun and we all made fanfics and were all super soft and cutesy together instead of just eternally depressed and falling deeper into insanity with no real outlet anymore
          
          i miss wattpad in general
          
          tbh thinking about bringing back that PDH fanfic i wrote- the vampire one- jus wanna revamp it a ton- but i like lowkey dreamt about it the other night and the plot was genius and the execution was pretty great too i mean most various x readers have like one chapter where they focus on one person and the next chapter is a different person but this was just realistic as fuck i just never realized how realistic it was cuz i wrote it in middle school- but in high school i had 8 people crushing on me at once and it felt exactly like that fic LMAO and i think itd be therapeutic to start writing it again

changing my username bc v3x_slay is my main user on like everything and this isnt my main wattpad account anymore (hasnt been for years) so im switching my username okay bye