Y/N

ily

I have covid so that’s fun

Put sienna mayonnaise behind bars 

Happy new year 

Fuck the patriachy

FIRST OF ALL HAPPY 1ST OF DECEMBER OR WHATEVER DAY OF DECEMBER YOUR ON 
          
          Second 
          
          My crush 
          SO basically he keeps talking to me because I’m in 5 of his lessons and we sit near to eachother in 4 and next to eachother in 1 and AHHH he’s so funny and his laugh is gorgeous and his voice is so like idk nice and calm and perfect and he’s like smart but he made fun of my 98% in french when he got 100% so u know he can f himself but he shouldn’t because he’s really nice. And ugh he’s so nice and his knee and hand because his hand was on his knee was like touching my thigh/knee and it was giving me butterflies and I’m gonna stop because I’m probably being annoying 
          
          Third 
          
          The guy who I’ve been talking about (the one who kept looking at me tryna get close to me and was pretty etc) yeah I no longer care about him. I mean I do but I don’t. Because he doesn’t look as attractive anymore but he’s still attractive but like idk his voice is nice but idk anything about him so as for now he’s just a guy from school the only guy I care about is my crush 
          
          Anyway so how are u guys sorry I haven’t been online since the 24th November well I mean I have just I haven’t been seeing my notifications and I kinda forgot about this sorry guys ily with my whole heart have a good tmrw and Christmas but if you don’t celebrate Christmas have a good 24,25 and 26th December 

It’s been so long and I have NEWS (about a boy ooh) 
          
          
          so AHHH ok 
          
          So there’s this guy and I’ll make it short 
          So idk maybe like 2 weeks ago right I was waiting outside at the top of the road at school for my friends as per usual ok and this guy (he is fit) comes along and stands like only a metre away from me. Not even that far away right. I thought because I was like ok he’s taller than me (and I’m really tall) and he’s handsome and he seems nice I thought he was in the year above. Then I see his jumper. I see he has my years uniform on (it’s the same but for each year they have a different colour around the logo except sixth form don’t have a uniform) so I’m like damn I’m lucky I may as well get a lottery ticket 
          
          Then 
          
          We make eye contact no exaggeration for two weeks straight (we still are). I don’t his name, what class he’s in, his friends anything about him. All I know is he’s not in my quarter and he’s pretty.  By quarter we have 16 classes per year so they’re split into halves and quarters so there’s like 400 odd in each year and a total of like 2000 people and 200 odd staff including sixth form in the entire school. Small school I know. ANYWAY. So I’m gonna tell u one incident that happened. Yesterday I’m waiting outside the gate for my friend to come out and he walks out, makes eye contact with me, looks away, makes eye contact again, walks past, looks back. 
          
          AHHHH
          
          WHEN I TELL U THE BUTTERFLIES    
          
          ok so yeah 

I GOT AN UPDATE ABOUT MY WATTPAD Y/N LIFE 
          
          so yesterday I got switched seats with the guy next to me. So a is my crush and I’m b the table looked like this 
          
          D, C, B, A 
          
          But then it was 
          
          D, B, C, A
          
          But then I got switched back to my crush. The guy who has a crush on me before french we had to wait outside and I was talking to him and my friends but he was only paying attention to me. The other guy who has a crush on me kept staring at me during form. No update about the other guys. If I keep my academic stuff what it’s like now I’ll be getting 7, 8 and possibly 9’s. That’s like B plus or B star then A and A star so u know. 
          
          Then also I went to see eternals today ngl the start was really really bad but it got better and my friend only went to see Harry styles but he’s only in the post credit scene so she was angry and the cinema not even exaggerating there was me, my friend, 1 person Infront  and 7 people behind it was empty. 
          I made my friend laugh so much she peed mid movie as well 

So someone else likes me 
          
          Let me tell u 
          I’m only gonna say a couple things because I cba and it’s late and my hands hurt 
          
          So I was at lunch today and I went over with my friend to the bit where basically half the school is (it has a lot of trees idk) and ended up talking to this group of guys who my friend knew. There was like 4 maybe 6 guys. So we’re in like a circle I guess and one of them goes behind the guy who apparently likes me and pushes him into me. I stepped back because no way am I falling over and him on top of me. So he ended up blushing and yeah bla bla bla 
           
          Also in french he always stares at me and makes eye contact BUT THE THING IS 
          
          MY CRUSH SITS NEXT TO ME IN FRENCH SO HES STARING AT ME WHILST MY CRUSH IS ALSO STARING AT ME AND IM JUST TRYING TO UNDERSTAND FRENCH 
          
          and yeah 
          
          
          
          
          Also I got a 2 in p.e when I’m an actual athlete like I compete and shit like the cheek of miss I swear 
          
          
          If u don’t know it’s like 1-9 
          9 being the highest 2 being the lowest 

GUYS AHHHHHH IM IN MY Y/N ERA 
          
          Ok so I’m not gonna write a book that was a week long phase sorry 
          
          Ironic how I used to be Y/N as well ANYWAY I HAD TO TELL AND I DIDNT EVEN REALISE how pathetic of me 
          
          SO I’m gonna put in bullet points 
          
          •I’m pretty sure my crush likes me back 
          
          •3+ guys like me I’m not sure on the other but   definitely the first 3 
          
          •I got 100% on my french test which was a higher level one and I didn’t even revise one bit 
          
          •I got 98% on my Spanish 
          
          •I understand everything in every single class 
          
          •my mental health is improving 
          
          •my skin is clear and I hope it will stay clear 
          
          •All the conversations I’ve had have not been awkward 
          
          •my crush put his leg against mine (sounds weird but it isn’t like his leg brushed against mine and neither of us moved) 
          
          •I haven’t cried since Saturday 
          
          •Im actually revising even tho I do mocks next year and GSCE exams in 2 years but u know 
          
          •I’m kinda smart