"I .. I won't!" he took a step back , hands clenched tightly in his shirt. blood dropped from his mouth , coated his body , settled in a slight pool around him. they had been practicing for awhile. his insides burned from the amount of organs he had discarded. "I won ( t ) use it all .. you tol ( d ) I'd be ( o ) kay here! I don't — don ( t ) wanna die."