[ yuji knows, rationally, that this is not something he should think. knows, deep down, that his grandpa would be wholly disappointed if he could hear him right now. but they’re deep-rooted, these feelings. they plague him daily. he’s started to wait for death like an old friend he’ll welcome into his home for a movie night. ] well, yeah, i know, but.. its kind of inevitable, isn’t it? my death is the best way to get rid of.. so.