Wolfy!

hey yall its my fuckin birthday
          thats crazy
          i feel old now

I just saw a sticker on the back of someone's car that says "if you can read this, BAKDAFUKUP" (I was walking around my neighborhood btw) and it made my fucking day lmao
          
          also this.
          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=udqMxOLFk7s&t=4s

idek why, but whenever I hear my mom yell, I death grip the nearest thing to me and start shaking and crying :D

AvAF wiki off-topic thread is getting toxic bc ppl from another wiki (CSW [creative stories wiki]) are coming over just for the OT thread
          ppl who are actually on the AvAF wiki for what it was made for are getting pissed off bc of CSW ppl(?) 
          and theres constant arguments 
          we're having to consider leaving behind the BGChat (bad grammar chat, the off-topic thread) bc of this.
          im fucking done.
          im sick and tired of us having to pack up our discussions and good times and move.
          im crying real tears right now because theres no going back and we're just stuck moving all the time I guess.
          I just miss how it used to be

I feel like im being really selfish rn
          
          So on the AvA Fanon Wiki of Fandom, I had been trying to adopt the wiki & get admin for a while. then the wiki became more dative and someone recommended some other person (who is my friend btw) and they won the "election" for admin. I didn't really care that much.
          then they got admin and promoted 2 thread mods, two of my friends who r very active on the wiki. 
          this made sense.
          then a content mod was promoted and it was a on-and-off active..ness user w like ~100 edits and 1 warning. (vs me and I think one other person w 200+ edits, 0 warnings.) 
          again, im trying not to take it too seriously, as its the admin's decision and I trust them to know what's best.
          one of the thread mods (a person that I really want to be closer w and also I admire them a lot for their writing) got promoted to admin today and im beyond happy for them.
          but it still kinda hurts that ppl are being handed out status and ive been left out of it when I worked so goddamn hard for so long (those editing streaks were a living hell sometimes).
          
          ik this is really selfish of me, but honestly, I just had to say this somewhere :')

so some of yall know me as being christian 
          and id just like to say that i have made the decision to leave the religion. 
          it has only caused me pain, disappointment, and feeling unloved, and it feels like i cant live my life to its fullest.
          right now, it just seems like the best for me, as i will be able to live and heal without worrying about the creator of the damn universe watching my every move and being angry at me.
          plus, i am tired of churches and religious people talking down on me and saying that im disobeying the will of god and/or going to hell just for being myself, directly or indirectly.
          im sorry to anyone who i have just lost the respect of, or is disappointed in me, or wants to unfollow, etc.
          but im gonna live my life for me and the people i love, not some church with standards that i cannot live up to that has only hurt me.
          ill still be going on as normal, just felt the need to say this.
          might make a chapter explaining more, but for now, this is it.

Hey, just popping in to say being the "gifted kid" sucks!
          
          Like I'm sick and tired of being used for answers and having to put my books in my locker once I finish things so I don't get cheated off of.
          I'm tired of having so much expected of me. I was actually surprised when I heard that some parents congratulate their kids for doing well on tests because my parents never say how I did well unless they're comparing me to other people (usually acting like I'm better than them), kind, innocent people who I care about. 
          I'm tired of burning out so much and having to hide it because I know the consequences of being subpar. (I almost got a C in math once because the math teacher left suddenly and didn't grade things so they were marked as zeros. My mom was yelling at me a lot that day. ["this is unacceptable," "*I* never needed someone to make sure I turned in things on time, I just did it!" etc.] 
          I'm so fuckin tired of of the assumption that I want to take honors classes.
          I'm in middle school.
          I don't think my school even *has* honors classes. 
          (Not to mention the fact that I don't want to have to go through dealing with & meeting a whole new set of people.)
          
          
          I hate this!
          :D

HAPPT VALENTINES DAY YALL
          
          *gives you a digital cookie to celebrate*

GUYS THIS IS IMPORTANT
          THERE MIGHT BE AN OFFICIAL KING VS DARK FIGHT IF WE HELP
          READ ABT IT HERE:
          https://animatorvsanimation.fandom.com/f/p/4400000000000151923

the way my grandpa says the word "brutal" he sounds british and its hilarious