neko

I will read your stories.

Me andy bf stayed up till 5 am last time talking for almost 4 hours just talking and playing Roblox omg he is so adorable he fell asleep on voice chat to the sound of my voice he would go to sleep he finally said "will you read dear starboy to me? While I fall asleep" so I sat there and read the book to him till he stopped answering aaaa my heart 

Have you guys heard twenty one pilots new song!? Level of concern its so good
          Also im gettinv a iphone 7! And my mom bought me two panic! at the disco cases! EEK im so happy

Me:" your not supposed to wear a sports bra for like for then 7-8 hours" 
          My grandma:"why? And i don't" 
          Me:"i think its becuz their similar to binders do you know what a binder is?" 
          Grandma:"yes! If for those you wanna pretend to be boys!"
          Me:"i-i not necessary i mean some boys wear them becuz they feel fat-"
          Grandma:*ignores what i just said*"well im sure some sports girls wear them" 
          Me *in my head*"no! Becuz your not supposed to exercise in them!"*what i actaully say"yeah maybe " *walks away and sits on the couch and types this in sadness about knowing i will never be accepted*

UGH I HATE BEING BORED FEMALE. *sobs* the female reproductive system is so stupid
          Why do we bleed
          Why
          Why UGH 

So ive thought about this
          And like if i do come out my only support would be my favorite aunt and uncle
          Karda and Albert
          They support lgbtq+
          So ive thought about this
          And i might come out to them as nb in July
          Becuz I have a anime con to go to with them
          So it will just be me and them together for three days straight and idk how im gonna tell them 
          But we most likely will go shopping and maybe I'll hint it there like ask for male clothes rather than female and stuff 
          Idk any ideas?
          Anyway just wish me luck I guess i mean if the world doesn't end before july
          

No, your mom don't get it
          And your dad don't get it
          Uncle John don't get it
          
          And you can't tell grandma
          'Cause her heart can't take it
          And she might not make it
          
          They say, "Don't dare, don't you even go there
          Cutting off your long hair"
          You do as you're told
          
          Tell you, "Wake up, go put on your makeup
          This is just a phase you're gonna outgrow"
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          It is not a phase-
          How i feel is not a phase 
          How you feel is not a phase
          Dont let your parents or guardians tell you otherwise 
          They don't know you more than you know yourself 
          
          Cut off your hair if you want to
          Dress how you want me personally i identify as non binary but i was born female i dress more tomboyish i grew up and all my friends labeled me as a tomboy
          You like dresses? Then wear dresses! 
          Suits? Hell yah !
          Random assortment of clothes? Just my style!
          Just be you!
          Be yourself
          Don't be who they want you to be 
          Wanna bind? Well then do it :3 
          Udk where i was going with this...
          Just
          BE YOURSELF!!! Oof kill me
          

Ok so I got reported on insta so now i cant comment or like or even follow people or their posts wanna know why? Its becuz some people commented that trans people were stupid and autistic 
          So i stood up for them cuz I respect and support trans people so why tf did i get reported? People should be repected for who they are and who they wanna be so yeah go blow up insta or something :') sorry y'all probably dont care

Me*puts on hoodie like always* 
          Mymom"it's like 80° aren't you hot?" 
          Me" n..no"*gently pulls sleeves down* 
          Mymom" your weird"
          Me "yeah thanks for reminding me" 
          
          (Now me and my friend)
          
          
          Me"I'm hot but I refuse to take off my hoodie"
          My friend"luca take it off now I dont want you to over heat"
          Me"ill be fine I dont wanna take it off..."
          My friend" dont be ashamed of your self" 
          Me"I hate myself for what ive done"
          My friend" for what you've done? You mean staying strong and winning a battle?" 
          Me" no... I wasn't strong this is all my fault I wasnt thinking"
          Friend"luca listen its not your fault and you are awesome the way you are never be ashamed of whats in the past " 
          Me"ima just-"*quietly dabs make up on my arm*
          Friend"luca take that off you dont need it your perfect the way you are and you've stopped you know their old so stop worring" 
          Me"fine..."* walks outside in short sleeves extremely uncomfortable* 
          Me five minutes later "ok I'm done"*slips hoodie back on" 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I dont know if you understand or cared :') 

So im like um trans and i kinda accidentally came out to my aunt so im freaking out and about to cry cuz idk what to do now