suicidal_freak15

Hey guys, I'm going to finish the book I started.... and then I'm going to leave.
          	Like, as in.... Go "up", as someone could put it. 
          	Don't try and talk me out of it please.
          	And if I don't finish it, I hope u can use ur awesome imaginations to do the rest!
          	I love you guys.
          	Night.

MsBloodyMurder

@suicidal_freak15 sorry, it's not my fault I'm so damn depressed, I don't mean to take it out on ppl it just freaking happens. Sorry that you lost him, everyone that cared I's sorry your not the only one, and your also not the only one that has lost ppl that way, I've lost more than 3 ppl that way okay? done ppl seem like they don't care but deep down they do, deep
          	  .... deep... down they really do care
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MsBloodyMurder

@suicidal_freak15 it doesn't matter any more, his gone now..... we should all stop dwelling over the past.... it won't help us in the future, but stay strong and positive, that's how I try to be everyday
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outcasted_

Zay...... I really miss you... We all do...
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outcasted_

hi zay. years ago i said i wouldn't talk to you anymore as i was probably annoying you, even though you're gone. still, i have some glimmer of hope left in me that maybe, just maybe, you're still here. maybe im being foolish. maybe im delusion. maybe i just miss you and wished we could have been better friends. you were so nice to me, even when i wasn't nice to myself. i was so obnoxious back then. if only you could see what has become of me. would you be pleased? disappointed? my mind won't stop racing when i think of you and thalia, who i no longer know is dead or alive. talking to you was my outlet, even once you were gone. we weren't too close because i was far too hesitant of the internet, but if we were to have met later, maybe i could have let you in. maybe you would have let me help you. maybe i would have made it on time to just say goodbye. i have never forgotten you, as you always are with me. your death shaped me. for better or worse, i have no clue. all i know is that i can never forgive myself for being too late. it has gotten easier with time, but never easy. never okay. i miss you zay, and i wish you were here to help me through my darkest moments. i find myself wondering if you have met thalia wherever you are, or kaila. you didn't know kaila, but she took her life two years after you. i wasn't too close to her either, but knowing her in real life broke me even more. knowing that i saw her cries for help and ignored them destroys me to this day. if you have met her, please say hi for me. i've been rambling. im sorry. this isn't a final goodbye. this is just a conversation between a delusional girl and her dead online friend. i hope i may talk to you soon. 

suicidal_freak15

Hey guys, I'm going to finish the book I started.... and then I'm going to leave.
          Like, as in.... Go "up", as someone could put it. 
          Don't try and talk me out of it please.
          And if I don't finish it, I hope u can use ur awesome imaginations to do the rest!
          I love you guys.
          Night.

MsBloodyMurder

@suicidal_freak15 sorry, it's not my fault I'm so damn depressed, I don't mean to take it out on ppl it just freaking happens. Sorry that you lost him, everyone that cared I's sorry your not the only one, and your also not the only one that has lost ppl that way, I've lost more than 3 ppl that way okay? done ppl seem like they don't care but deep down they do, deep
            .... deep... down they really do care
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MsBloodyMurder

@suicidal_freak15 it doesn't matter any more, his gone now..... we should all stop dwelling over the past.... it won't help us in the future, but stay strong and positive, that's how I try to be everyday
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outcasted_

Zay...... I really miss you... We all do...
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