( @bakerstreets ) thank you for your kind words! I think i find it so hard to trust myself to make big decisions for the fear of getting it wrong and ending up in a place where I’m unhappy. I’ve really struggled with mental health/depression for the most part of my life, so not knowing if the choices I make are going to put me in a really scary headspace again is kind of terrifying. I had this idea that university was going to give me the freedom and change in routine to facilitate something that would make me happier— I went in with a degree I was interested in, but not certain on, hoping that i would grow to like and everything else would fall into place after that. But I think I’m learning that it’s not about learning how to like things, it’s about giving myself the chance to take risks and try different things out until I find it naturally instead of forcing it. I don’t have to know everything about myself right now, and that’s okay :) It really get the melancholy that comes with giving up childhood idealisations of ourselves <3