sosiejak

does anyone have any good fnaf or harry styles fics bc i’m running v low???

sosiejak

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yo yo yo yo long time no see (it's actually been like not even a month)
          
           but i just wanted to tell you new stories are being written (a new fnaf highschool au: book 1 of 4) 
          
          i'm still alive 
          
          yes things are changing such as my username 
          
          guess i'm trying to find a new aethstetic i'm not entirely sure
          
          anyways i'm still very immature and trying to get updates out. i just have not been in the mood to write (call me lazy i don't get phased by it)
          
          butttt i'm trying. it's christmas break so i'm going to try and get off my lazy ass and update sum shit and start new book.
          
          you see i've gotten into hamilton lately *slowly inhales* and that means im reading alot of fan fiction.
          
          and i want to write stories as well.
          
          but i got sucked into this vertex of fnaf and i can't crawl my way out of it. 
          
          im not sure if i want to do that with hamilton 
          
          i have derealization and although i haven't been diagnosed by a doctor, all the signs point to it. 
          
          because of this i constantly feel like i'm always dreaming. 
          
          i make up the characters in my mind and i interact with them, pretend i'm them.
          
          HEAR ME OUT
          
          i've never been very close with anyone in my life and i believe that me not connecting with anyone triggers that.
          
          i zone out all the time and it's weird and it's stupid but i have forced myself into this little confined space in my brain and it's just kinda always been that way.
          
          i'm not sure if it's just because i have anxiety or i'm just a fangirl but whatever it is it's not stopping
          
          i'm 13 and i want to fit in and telling people i write stories about animatronics that kill people just isn't what people think is considered normal.
          
          i feel happy writing things like that though.
          
          i think it helps me connect with reality more.
          
          i don't know what it is and i'm to lazy to figure it out. but i will.
          
          anyway updates should be coming soon.
          
          constructive criticism is always appreciated and tell me what i should write. 
          
          should i write hamilton stuff.
          
          let me know :)
          
          bye