Hello dear readers of mine, I've been thinking alot these past few days about my two books and kind of the direction I want to take them moving forward.
I have to be honest with you guys, I've ran out of inspiration for one of my books, I absolutely have no idea what to write and how I want to portray my character. This book that I'm talking about is The Windsors. It was my first book I have every published and honestly, it was my baby. I started writing that book back in 2019 when I was still in Uni.
Honestly, I realise that I was really harsh on Meghan in that book and I was milking on that, which is quite a toxic thing to do; to my mental health and to my readers. I received quite a lot of criticism in that book and to be frank, quite a lot of hate as well. I got comments and messages sayign that I needed help (even though it is fiction and in no way portray her in real life or any of them actually) and I fell out of love with that book. It became quite the chore to continue writing and I lost inspiration.
Then I started my next book, Life of Victoria, and I fell in love once again. I have all my background checks and my character development in check. I knew what I want Victoria to be and how she's portrayed. I wanted her to be the backbone of the family and the one who kept it all together. I started this book in 2020 and I have many things in store for her (at least 3 more parts).
I'm happy with how my character has developed over the chapters and her growth, focusing on her relationship with her husband, her brothers and her family.
I've been thinking about this for the past few days and decided that I will be taking down The Windsors. I'm not happy with the book, and I'm not happy with how the story is progressing. It's very hateful, I'm not happy with how Eleanor is as a character, eventhough I'm trying to rewrite the whole book and have her less of a bully, I'm completely stuck.
xoxo, soph <3